27-2-2011 - Is it possible..again?

My mood while writing this blog: worried

So these past few days i have been worrying myself sick. Theres a possibility that i could be pregnant..again. Definitely not on purpose of course tho. Accidents happen i guess right? My son is only 3 months old. How in the world would i take care of him and a new born? He would only be about a year old when i have the baby..if i was pregnant. The bad thing is that the day the condom broke was when i believe ovulation day was..or a day or 2 from it. So even if i was a few days out, i could still be pregnant. I've been havin period-like cramps for a few days now and thats what has me thinkin that i may be. It was just like this when i found out i was pregnant with braylon. My partner brought up the A word..which i cant even begin to spell cuz i would never be able to do that to my unborn child. The child did nothing wrong to deserve that. It didn't ask to come into this world so why would i make the choice of taking it out before it even got a chance to live? I dunno. Maybe im not. Maybe im just cramping so much cuz AF is gonna hit me hard this month. But im not due for another 5 days or so. If i remember right, I had cramping this early with my son. But i think i brushed it off thinking i wasnt pregnant like all the other months. I keep thinking "how in the world am i going to tell my parents this news if i am?" I would have so many people disappointed in me, its not even funny. But its my life and my childs life, not theirs right? Today i even feel kinda sick to my stomach which is more than likely caused from me worrying so much. Its too early for symptoms like that right? ::sigh:: Its just a waiting game now i guess..