06-10-2008 - Things are better.

My mood while writing this blog: Optimistic

Well pretty much all weekend my boyfriend and I argued then he would call trying to be all sweet then we would argue some more so I finally told him I was through with all this mess and I wasn't dealing with it anymore and not to call me back unless he was calling to apologize. He was saying some pretty mean things when we would argue..of course accusing me of cheating and saying this baby wasn't his and all kinds of lovely stuff like that....His wife ruined him. He is so messed up from what she did to him he thinks all women are that way. Anyway Sunday Night he called and apologized but of course wanted me to accept it right away and I just couldn't do that after everything he had said. So I told him I would talk to him tomorrow. So he calls me first thing this morning and wanted to take me to dinner tonight but I have my son and he wanted to talk of course so we went to lunch instead. We didn't really talk about anything but he took me to a nice restaurant, brought me a dozen roses, 2 cards, a stuffed animated puppy, chocolates, a little ring (no jewels included just silver w/design) and money. Included in one of the cards was a letter he wrote to me telling me how when we met up again this time he was at the lowest point in his life and afraid of getting involved with me again because my X-husband and I had just recently seperated and he couldn't stand the thought of loosing me all over again (like 11 years ago) All kinds of sweet stuff like that and that I have been the best thing that could have happened to him and a whole bunch other sweet stuff. Anyway moving is still delayed I'm not just gonna jump right back into this full fledged right now I'm not ready to make that step after all we have been through this past week and times this has occured in the past. But I know he loves me and I love him, I just hope these lovely..(NOT) outburst don't happen any more. Time will tell.