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	Age: 32 Country: USA Province/region: Texas City: Partner: Tony Children: Yes, 2 Pregnant: No Occupation: Claim's Examiner/Peace Officer
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12-11-2008 - Lonely

My mood while writing this blog:
Very Depressed

Tonight is his only night off work and I should be cuddled up all warm and cozy in his arms as I always am on his days off. The most affectionate man I have ever known. But instead I'm home alone missing him terribly and trying to remain strong. Trying to understand why this man that is absolutely the man of my dreams has to be Bi-polar and an alcoholic. Doesn't sound like much of a dream I know, but outside of those two things he is everything I could ask for. Just the most wonderful man I have ever been with. I love the way he looks, I love the way he moves on the dance floor and in the bedroom >;), I love his affection, I love that he loves to cook (I hate the kitchen), I love that he cares about his appearence and mine, I love the way he loves me, I love that he loves kids, I love that he loves to hang out with friends and me, or just me, or me and my son, I love that he always wants to make sure I'm comfortable.....this list goes on and on. Why does he have to be so wonderful but have such major issues? I love him so much....I hate the devil in him!!! During one of his moods one day I swear the devil was staring back at me it just wasn't even him in there anywhere. He is completely someone else when he has his mood swings. I keep trying to remember that. The devil is sooo unpredictable. He needs serious help and I just don't see him going to get it. But I miss him terribly and I'm sooo lonely tonight knowing I should be in his arms.

1 Comments on Lonely

bezzi44 - Saturday, 15 Nov
How are things? Did you get your stuff from his house?

You're feelings are totally natural. The guys that give you the highest highs are also the ones that take you to the lowest of lows... That's why they're so hard to escape from.

Hang in there!!!

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