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	Age: 32 Country: USA Province/region: Texas City: Partner: Tony Children: Yes, 2 Pregnant: No Occupation: Claim's Examiner/Peace Officer
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19-11-2008 - Moving Update

My mood while writing this blog:
Wore Out & Sad

Well I wrote the boyfriend a note and pretty much asked him "Who are we kidding here" This is never gonna work. We have our wonderful moments but there are just somethings we will never agree on. I can't deal with the alcohol or mood swings any more and it's time for me to get settled in somewhere...Benjamin will be here very soon. Even though I made the note out to be neither of our faults he went off the deep end when he read it. Of course he just had to leave his wonderful messages on my voicemail cause I wasn't talking to him after he read it. In the 6 weeks he has lived in his own place (that I was slowly moving into) he has drank 2 bottles of Seagrams 7, 2 bottles of Maker's Mark, 1 bottle of Jack Daniels, A huge bottle of wine, and atleast 1 six pack of beer (I think they are half gallon bottles not sure exactly but the wine was like 2-3 gallons. And he says he doesn't have a problem....PALEESE!!! That amount of alcohol would have lasted me 5 years or longer...but I'm not a big drinker either. Anyway I did tell him I would move my stuff out of his way this weekend if he couldn't attempt to get help because atleast I know I need some anti-depressants and my Dr is aware I need some but he needs to go to a Dr, but little did he know that if he responded the way I figured he would and he did to that note I moved everything out alot sooner than he thought.....when he gets to his house in the morning.....Man is he gonna be pissed off. I managed to get everything out of there tonight....and I mean Everything that belonged to me is back at mom's house. I kinda got sad when I got ready to lock up and leave his house for the last time....I was sooo looking forward to being out of mom's house and I loved it over at his house and I love him. But I knew if I waited until this weekend when he is off work to get my stuff that it just wouldn't work. No way could I have gotten my stuff if he was home when I was moving. So I did it with him having no idea it was being done. I'm a little sad now and a little relieved to get my stuff out the way I did. But I can only imagine what it will bring for me in the morning but I guess he can leave all those messages on my voicemail because I don't have to talk to him....especially since I will be at work when he gets home and sees all my stuff gone. I don't know how I will do it when I do go into labor...not sure I want him at the hospital until after the baby is born for sure....he couldn't handle the stress of me being in labor and I don't need the heart ache during that time anyway. But how can I leave him out of that too?? This is his first child and seeing the baby when it comes out just doesn't happen every day. I hate to make him miss it but I hate to imagine what it will be like if he is there too. I dunno what I will do....I guess I will figure that out when the time comes. I probably lifted and moved way more than I should have tonight but I had no choice and only my 8 year old son to help...except at the end I did have the neighbor help Cody and I load the couch. I was afraid I was going to have to leave my couch (we had his and mine in the living room) but luckily the neighbor came home at the last minute and it did fit in mom's truck so everything of mine is gone from there....not even 1 stitch of clothing of mine is left as far as I know. Now I have soo much work to do at mom's house I'm not even looking forward to it...and I'm sooo sore already but atleast I can do this a little at a time.

1 Comments on Moving Update

bezzi44 - Friday, 21 Nov
Congratulations! You've made the first few steps in a long journey of a healthier and happier life for you and your boys!

You don't have to decide just yet what you will do about the birth. I did have BD with me at the birth - we hooked back up at the last minute (he never came to birthing classes or a single dr visit with me). It wasn't his first either. But anyway, I thought it was going to be heaven and it wasn't. I guess I was glad he was there except I mad the mistake of given my daughter both our last names. But even if he is there, doesn't mean he'll change. =(

Keep us posted and be strong! xx

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