05-1-2009 - Your opinion plz...if you read the previous venting blog

My mood while writing this blog: Curious

So I sent an email through myspace to my brother's fiance'. I'm hoping I didn't come off rude in it but I wanted to find out a few things and also state a few things to her. Tell me what you think, See Below:

So what are ya'lls plans? When are ya'll getting married? Are ya'll looking for an apartment or a place to live? Wasn't sure what you were gonna do at the end of the month when your suppose to move from your apartment. My friend has her 3br/2bath trailer for rent $550 a month. I wish I could afford it, I'd be outta here, this house is sooo full but I can't....I'm stuck here. My poor son doesn't even have a bedroom anymore and I have no room for the baby here at all but have to make due can't afford to do anything else. ;( I hoped to move out with income tax but that money now has to go to pay off my trustee. Wayne will have to pay child support but that will never be money I can count on because he has a habit of not keeping a job. And now I'm gonna be looking at paying $500 a month to daycare..oh well it's a position I've put myself in that I can't change now. I had a hard time breast feeding Cody but I did it and I plan on doing it with Benjaman too...but it's going to be weird this time if my brother is still here, luckily he stays in his room...I'm not one that likes to breast feed in front of anyone...it's so hard for me with big boobs and all to cover up and not sufficate my baby. LOL have to hold the boob off his nose, hehe. Sorry that the smoke was killing me but I'm about completely over it now since you aren't here...Smoking in the room was still leaving the smoke in the house and my allergies couldn't handle it. Mom smokes too but she smokes a different brand and not that much. She also said she never smokes in the bedrooms says they are too small of an area and sometimes she goes outside. That increases the risk of SIDS too. I hope Clif, Mom, Cody and I are all over this illness because Benjaman will be here soon and I don't need and neither will he. The first 3 weeks of the baby's life they say they shouldn't even go out in public or be around alot of people because of all the illnesses especially winter babies. He doesn't need to get RSV or whatever it's called. Motherly instincts are in overload, LOL I'm going to be soo protective when he gets here...I'm not one that's big on kissing babies or anyone else kissing my babies, LOL. I never knew until recently how fatal a cold sore (fever blister) could be if a newborn came in contact with that. Anyway just thought I'd check on ya...see how you were and see what ya'll were gonna do when you gave up your apartment and when your getting married? TTYL

Leronda

So what that completely wrong of me to send??? I wanted her to get an idea that there is no room for her in this house...we are overloaded already as it is. And I don't want anyone smooching all over my baby when he gets here. LOL