04-4-2008 - Blogs before Apr 4th

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Saturday, 22 Mar

ugh! threw up for the first time last night! I had a show, we played for an hour and half, I was dripping sweat by the end of it. I ate some bbq before the show, it was free from the venue for us. And afterward, I had indigestion and acid refllux, really bad painful cramps, and finally I threw up. I've been so tired all day today too. I wonder if it was the food? Or was it morning sickness this late in the game? I mean I'm 15 weeks and haven't had a bit of throwing up yet! I just don't know...

Wednesday, 12 Mar

I went yesterday for my First Trimester Screening appt. I was so worried they'd have to do an amnio or CVS or something invasive... but thank goodness they just drew blood for tests, and took an ultrasound where they look for specific folds in the baby's neck to check for Down Syndrome and other diseases. It was really funny in the ultrasound. It took about 30 minutes to get the 3 shots the lady needed because...looks like we've got an active, and quite stubborn baby! I was laughing my ass off.. she of course wasn't. Baby hughes kept bouncing (literally bouncing... like a twitch!) then kicking around, flipping over, moving arms all over the place. It was so funny. And once she'd be ready to take the perfect picture... baby hughes would move! haha!! So stubborn. Just like daddy. (not me, of course.) I've got pictures in the photobook, these really aren't the best ones that we could have taken, which is a shame-but what can you do. One time, baby hughes stood straight up on my bladder! Kicked those little legs out like a swimmer and stood! It was so funny. (and of course, me being a swimmer, I was so proud.) Josh wasn't able to make it, which was also a shame because of how entertaining it was. He really regretting having to work once I came home and told him all about it. We also talked to the Genetics Counselor and Josh's CF Screen came back Negative, which means he's not a carrier. Good news. The only thing is they only tested for 23 mutations of the gene... whereas if we pay tons of money to get the more advanced test, they literally test for 500 mutations. But what's funny is that a neg test on the smaller one gives you 90% accurate conclusion. If you do the advanced test, it gives you 98%. I'm really ok with the 90% personally. Besides, all that will tell us is if Josh is a carrier, not if the baby has CF. I can't tell that unless I get an amnio... (which would be necessary if he IS a carrier) or when the baby is born. I think I'm just going to wait. I'm already carrying the baby, so there's nothing I can do if the baby does have CF at this point. So no use stressing until I can know for sure, that's what I think.

Anyway, it was a fun, eventful day. Really lifted my spirits. I think the down feeling is finally going away. It's like a fog lifted from my eyes. So weird. It's like I was in a little cocoon going through the motions of my weeks, and now finally I'm alert. I hope it stays this way. I really hate hormones. Here's to good days for the rest of our pregnancies!!

Tuesday, 4 Mar

Man, I don `t know what `s wrong with me. I `ve been so blah this whole time. I `m not my normal jovial self anymore. I feel somewhat depressed and I just can `t seem to make myself happy. Not that I `m depressed about the baby or anything! But just an overall down feeling. Like nothing is making me excited at all. UGH. Is this normal?

Friday, 29 Feb

man, finally. I finally got my constipation to stop. Regular again! (at least for 2 days, I don `t want to jinx it) I am drinking juice, taking fibercon, and eating prunes. Not quite sure if I like the prunes yet or not, but I tolerate them. I feel so much lighter. :o) haha seriously I feel like I lost 10 pounds. (TMI sorry). Well, our first trimester screening was supposed to be March 4th but the genetecist wanted to leave early that day so she rescheduled me. I love that I have to move my life around so someone can go home early. So it `s moved to March 11th. Seriously the girl that sets up the appointments knows nothing. When we set the appt the first time, she forgot the follow up visit with the doctor. So I got a message saying I HAD to make that appt soon. So I did. Then this time when she called to reschedule me, she said I could keep the follow up appt on the 4th if I wanted??? Then have the screening on the 11th. (dumbass) I told her about the message and she swore it wasn `t necessary to have a follow up appt afterwards. I was like, `the why did they call me and specifically tell me to get one scheduled, and soon? ` She of course had no answer. So against her suggestion I moved the follow up appt to the 11th also. She needs to go back to scheduling training school. This week I `ve gotten a little bigger and kids at school that I teach (highschool kids) are making comments that I `m `filling out `. Yeah I know, how nasty of them. Little shits. So of course I wonder if I `m too big, but doc and other people say I `m just fine so I `m not going to listen to little teenagers. It `s just frustrating to always have your weight commented on. (as if that `s okay or something!)Another big stresser this week is the band. They `ve been asking questions like what `s going to happen when I have the kid, is music just gonna stop completely? yada yada. My drummer and bass player are actually quite cool worrying more about my health, but of course my guitar player is only concerned about himself. He wants to know what HE `S supposed to do... what if I want to quit and then he has to move to another band? He `s already got tons of bands asking him to be their guitar player... but he `s committed to one with an unsure situation. UGH. So selfish. Whatever though. Guitar players are a dime a dozen and he can bite it. Basically I met with them last night and explained that I don `t have an answer for what I am going to want to do, and I won `t until I am a mom. (never been a mom before, duh.) But as of right now, music is my dream and I want to try to coordinate it. People in music have kids all the time. It `s not as if their life at home is nonexistent just because they sing or something. But we `ll see. The whole thing frustrates me and really bothers me to be honest. I thought my guys were more loyal than that. But I guess I was wrong. What guitar player fails to remember however is that if he pushes me into a corner, I `m gonna push back. And like it or not, this is MY band, with MY name and MY songs. So if I want him out- he `s out. He ought to shut his big mouth. Ugh!!!! I `m so happy I can vent on here! This has been a tough week all around.

Monday, 25 Feb

well, thank God. No more sickness. In fact, even the extreme tiredness is starting to fade. So that `s a good thing. What `s so funny is that I called one of my best friends- finally- she lives out of town... and told her the news. Turns out she `s pregnant too! And only 3 weeks ahead of me! It `s so hilarious. Our husbands are so competitive with everything and this just gives them one more thing to gloat about.. haha. But she said she never had m/s, that only once at the end of her 3rd month she felt nauseous at the smell of eggs and chicken. Then it was over. So that pretty much seems to match me... no m/s all along, then the taste of the toothpaste made me gag... and that was it. But it hasn `t happened since I switched to cinnamon toothpaste so I `m convinced that was it!

Tuesday, 19 Feb

well, this makes 2 blogs in one day but i need some advice. i am super tired, and even when i do sleep i wake up feeling groggy like i didn `t really sleep at all. on top of that it `s nonstop worry about weight, money, and time. its like i can `t enjoy this! i just keep thinking of all the stressful things! not only that but i haven `t felt like BDing in a while, which is making my husband not feel so good about himself. this is horrible! anyone have any solutions?

Tuesday, 19 Feb

Well, this morning I had my first bout of m/s. It was caused by the toothbrush...it makes me gag, then I just couldn `t stop the rest. Of course as soon as it was over, I felt great so I `m still not convinced it was REAL m/s. Who knows....

Monday, 18 Feb

This weekend was insane. I had a show in College Station that lasted until 1:30am. I was worried enough about driving the 2 hours home after that, but then some idiot guy backed into my parked truck! Really screwed up my tailgate and bumper. So dealing with him and the cops put me home at 5am. I barely could stay awake driving. The next morning I woke up at 8am and couldn `t go back to sleep. Then trying to take a nap around 11, I woke up to my heart racing horribly. After an hour I called my OB and she said go to the ER. My heart rate was at 207 for an hour. They gave me some medicine in an IV to make it slow down and I rested there for about 2 hours. Then I was cool to go home. They called it tachycardia. Usually caused by exhaustion or stress, probably made worse by the fact that I `m pregnant. (It has happened to me a few times before but never for that long.) So needless to say, it `s time for me to slow down! I `m going to have to cancel all our out of town shows. As of right now I `m only going to do the local shows, but be really really careful. It was really scary, but good that everything is ok.

Saturday, 16 Feb

Ok, so I sent in my first picture to the main photobook. Wanted to see what you guys thought about how big I am right now. I `ve been very athletic my whole life, and I `m only 5 `0 `, so I seriously don `t want to be too big! Please comment!