12-8-2009 - Prego woman venting!!!

My mood while writing this blog: ugh

First off I cant believe I'm already 22 1/2 weeks prego!!!

2nd, Why dont men understand things that we go through!!!!

I'm pregnant with my 2nd child, still work a 40 hr week job, come home and take care of a 13 mth old. I still nurse him. I never get a full nights sleep. I'm constantly up bc of Landen. I feel like he's on my boob the entire night just to soothe himself. When i do take him off it he'll sleep for about 45 mins then he's up whining, so i'll put him back on again. When my son goes to bed I'm usually in bed with him. bc I know when he wakes up I have to wake up. Usually we're in bed between 9-10 and up by 6am.

Another thing is, my mom and sister live with us. Mom is going through a seperation thing with her husband and the sis is 35 weeks prego and waiting for her b/f to move down here with her. So right there that alone causes stress and tension with the hubby and I.
My mom watches Landen while we're at work and I feel as if she complains about everything. Every little thing that jason does her and my sister complains about it.

In the morning when I leave for work I wake my husband up so he can watch Landen before he has to leave for work.
Usually he complains about it and says he tired and that he works 60 hours and why cant my mom watch him since she lives here for free and he getting tired of it. and he never gets to sleep in.
My reply back to him everytime is that Landen is his child and his responsibility and that he chose to work at a 50-60 hr week job and that I never get to sleep in and that he needs to get up and watch him.

If Jason would come home right after work instead of staying at the office and playing games online, or going out and playing in a basketball tournament that start at 9pm on thursdays or Playing basketball at church on tuesdays till sometimes 11pm, then he would be so tired!!!
When you have a child you have to change the way you live your life. You cant stay out till 11pm and them complain to me that you're tired and want to sleep in, OH WELL GET OVER IT!!!

I'm just sick & tired of everyone complaining about everything. Do I ever complain about not getting to sleep in??? NO.... Do I ever say Jason you need to get up with Landen in the middle of the night??? NO...
I've always been the one to wake up with Landen and feed him and change him. Ugh.... I'm just so upset right now.
And my husband wonders why I dont want to make love all the time... I'm DRAINED!!! thats why I go to sleep when landen goes to sleep. Plus he doesnt understand that I'm making a baby and my body is drained....

I just need peace in my home.
I dont know how much longer the family living with me is going to last... pretty sad but my marriage comes first

My husband doesnt understand that I'm so drained. He'll want to make love but there are time when i just dont feel up to it.