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11-8-2009 - Our Miscarriage 8/11/09

My mood while writing this blog: Devistated

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First of all, I don't want to scare anyone so if you don't want to know about miscarriage, don't read the rest of this post. This may be TMI (too much information) but I want to help those that are in this boat or may think they are having a m/c. Please don't think I'm trying to offend anyone, I only want to help.

I just had the m/c. about 1 1/2 hours ago. I had a few small clots and went to show my dh. Right as I was standing there I felt this gush, the water had broke and got all over my pants, it wasn't a LOT like you see in a full term, but it was enough for me to feel it. Right after that I ran into the bathroom about 7 feet away and hovered above the toilet and felt something slide out and instinctivly I put my hand down to catch it. It was the sac. It was purple, and when I turned it over in my hand, there was this tiny skin colored embryo. It had been deceased for 4 weeks, but was still all in one piece and still looked like an embryo, only maybe more blob like than a live one?. All of this was accompianied with heavy contractions (realllllly bad period-like cramps). I passed a lot of really big palm sized clots that would come out with the contractions. For some reason a feeling of peace came over me during even though I was in a lot of pain. I think it was the closure I needed. I'm just really glad I had time to prepare for it earlier today, rather than this just happening without me knowing it would.

It's still going to be very painful emotionally, but I'll be okay.

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5 Comments on Our Miscarriage 8/11/09


baby[bump]mama - Wednesday, 12 Aug
when i lost my first baby at about 12wks, well it is pretty much like your m/c. oh i know who you feel and and i know what it is like to look at your lil baby in your hand...it is the worst thing ever...but you are a strong woman and i am sure you hubsand will help you thru this though time. and we will all of us on I am pregnant. it bleed for over 2wks so i hope you revcover soon, and get pregnant after you start ttc!all my love, renee

amandunn - Wednesday, 12 Aug
Thanks so much, all of you. I'm trying to be strong, I know I'll probably have my good days and my bad days. Just knowing we'll try again in about 3 months makes me feel a lot better. I don't think my "one shot" at being a mommy is over, and I'll fight and continue with this pain till I hold a baby in my arms. Easier said than done, but with the support system I have in my husband, family, friends and even my dogs (lol), I know we can make it through this and hold my head up for what the future holds.

Julianna - Wednesday, 12 Aug
I am so sorry for your loss. I have had several MC myself so I know your pain all too well. I am glad you had time to prepare & that you were calm about it. Blessings!

HelluvaAngel - Wednesday, 12 Aug
I'm so sorry to hear of you loss. You sound like a very strong person. I hope you feel better very soon. Take care!

DiandClover - Wednesday, 12 Aug
My goodness, I am so very sorry. I responded to your last blog, and was so happy to hear your feelings on your pregnancy - so wanted and loved. Your post, as painful as it is, may help others. I did something similar when I was diagnosed with my ectopic pregnancy. I hope you heal quickly, and when you are ready to try again, I hope you are quickly blessed with a healthy baby. ((hug))