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04-10-2009 - The Big Decision

My mood while writing this blog: Sad but hopeful

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We were originally going to TTC again in late Octotber-early November, but there are a few things I want to do first. We're doing a lot of home improvement stuff lately and this place is far from baby proof. Also, I won't be active on DH's insurance till January 1, 2010. I could get short term insurance right now and TTC in November like we'd planned, but that will end up costing us more. That money could go toward getting our house to where we want it before baby. UGHHHH, such a HARD, TOUGH decision! But I think it's what I need to do. I brought it up to hubby and he seemed a bit relieved. He was worried we'd try and get these projects done with me being pregnant and last time I was pregnant, I barely wanted to move without feeling sick, and I so want to be able to do these projects together. In the grand scheme of things it's really only 2 extra months to wait. If we try when we originally wanted to, I'd also probably miss my 10 year high school reunion. I've been looking forward to that since before high school was even over!! I think I just came to the realization that we can't rush this. The timing has to be right. If by chance something happened and we got pregnant before that, of course I'd be extremely happy, but again, the whole insurance thing. Ugh, why do lifes big decisions have to be so tough?!?!?! I know we're doing the responsible thing, but I'm so darn impatient! It's almost like putting my life on hold an extra two months! I want to be a mommy more than anything, but I want to make sure we have a house that is safe for our babies too. We have a pellet stove in our existing fireplace that we want to make into a really nice gas fireplace. The pellet stove is dangerous. Anytime my neice is over I watch her like a hawk when she's around it. Also we have to redo our downstairs bathroom. The tiles are falling out in the shower and there is no doubt mold behind them because it's just drywall, not the cement board! EEEEK! After these two things are fixed, and I get on the insurance hopefully there will be NOTHING stopping us from getting the baby of our dreams.

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4 Comments on The Big Decision


min41 - Friday, 9 Oct
Mmm... why are practical decisions so hard when your heart is involved. Of course it is the right decision, but that doesn't make it any easier. Spend those couple of months getting as healthy as you can so you and your body are at the right place to ttc again. Good luck to you. We bought our house last November and are still doing lots of renovating - when we have the time and the money we keep doing more.

amandunn - Monday, 5 Oct
Thanks so much angel mamas! It really was a tough decision, but the timing will be more "right" in January, though it pains me greatly to say that! Baby dust to you all! (hugsnjugs)

heids - Monday, 5 Oct
The time will pass in blink of an eye, I admire your wisdom! (can u pls share some with me!) Take care lovely Hx

butterfly-angel - Sunday, 4 Oct
Everything will be perfect and you won't have that extra stress on you. Its hard to put your plans for ttc on the back burner for a little while - but it won't be for long. You'll be 100% ready for your little miracle. ~Hugs~