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07-11-2009 - Ughh.

My mood while writing this blog: Mopey

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So I'm 28 weeks pregnant, and jobless...and BROKE.

I was doing daycare for a family and everything was just fine, except the money really sucked...and all of a sudden the husband gets fired. I'm so frustrated. They definately didn't pay me enough, and sometimes the hours were ridiculous, but it was still a job. Not only a job, but a job that I could do WITH my baby when he comes. They were more than okay with me bringing him with me, so not only would I get to raise him-- I can't imagine having to take him to some daycare when he's just a few months old :(, but I would also be making at least SOME money. Totally a win-win situation. And now all of that is not going to happen and I'm like panicking. I've been applying for jobs for the last month since I lost my daycare job, and I've had a few interviews that I really thought went well, but NOT ONE place has called me back, and it really kind of pisses me off. I really feel like there is no reason any of those places wouldn't have hired me-except I'm pregnant. And I know they're not supposed to discriminate, but what a bunch of BS, like they can't just say "Oh sorry, we found somebody more qualified." These are all like hourly positions too, I'm talking minimum wage, don't really need any damn qualifications.

My boyfriend works full time and goes to school full time, but he really doesn't make much money and I just don't know what we're gonna do once this baby comes. I read about everyone getting their nurseries ready for the baby and it just makes me want to cry I'm so jealous. We don't even know where we're going to be living in a few months. We're on a few waiting lists for subsidized housing but I called around a few days ago and the shortest list we're on is still 5 months long. Right now we're staying in an apartment in an "older" couple's private home, and the way the house is set up, basically our apartment (which is a very small 1 bedroom apartment) is RIGHT across the hall from their bedroom. So our bedroom and their bedroom are really only seperated by the one wall...and I don't know what we're supposed to do once we have a baby that just might feel like screaming all night. I can't imagine they'll just kick us out or anything, I mean they knew I was pregnant when they let us move in, but I also told her it was only going to be temporary until we come up on a waiting list somewhere. It's just taking longer than I expected, and I would feel horrible if our baby was keeping them awake at night. And I'm sure they wouldn't appreciate it much either.

I feel better after venting a little, not that it helps my situation any, but still. I guess this is what I get for getting pregnant when I'm 20 years old and have nothing. I know it sounds horrible, but I'm really glad that the baby won't know the difference, and wont judge us for the first couple of years at least. My boyfriend should be out of school (he's going for diesel mechanics) in less than 2 years, and I really hope then we can settle down a bit and at least have SOMETHING to offer our little guy. Sorry if none of this made sense, I just kind of started ranting.

Gosh I'm such a whiner.

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2 Comments on Ughh.


amber-lamber - Wednesday, 18 Nov
Thanks so much for commenting ladies...my boyfriend recently talked to our landlady and apparently she is more than alright with us being here with the baby at least for the first few months!! I am SO relieved. I feel so much better about everything right now...still looking for a job, but I have an interview to nanny for a family on friday and they're alright with me bringing the baby along when the time comes, so wish me luck!! Even if I cant get a job though, now that I know we're welcome to stay here, my boyfriend can actually fully support us if he really HAS to. Of course it would be nice to have some spending money though ;) Again, thanks so much for commenting, it means a lot when you're feeling crappy and someone cares. :)

secondstar - Saturday, 7 Nov
I don't think you're a whiner at all..it would be scary to feel like you don't know how you'll give your son everything he needs, especially when you *had* a job and then life had to go and shift on you. I'm sorry that you haven't been able to find another job..are you looking at being a nanny/running a daycare or have you just been looking at things outside of childcare? I would think that with all the working parents out there, there would be someone who would need you..and it would be so nice to be able to keep your little guy with you during the day. I hope that you're able to find something that works for you. I'm planning to be a stay at home mom..things will be a little tight money wise, but my husband and I both want to our little boy to be raised at home and thankfully we're in a position to make that happen, at least for the first few years. Of course, I have a degree in English and haven't worked since before I started college..so who knows who will ever hire me if I don't get a book published ;). But anyway..I do hope that everything works out, particularly your need for another place to live. Just remember that you're right when you say that your son isn't going to be judging you. Most of the things people buy for their kids are not necessary when you really think about it.. As long as you're meeting his basic needs, which I'm sure you will be, all that matters if that you guys love your baby and you'll always be doing your best for him. Okay, I'm done now..sorry for the huge comment :)