27-7-2009 - Advice please...

My mood while writing this blog: disappointed

Ok, I am CD33 today and I was expecting AF to show her face tomorrow or Wednesday.

I checked my CP yesterday and is was mid, softish and closed. Not at all what I would expect just before AF.

I have been getting sore BB's and firing nipples, extreame tiredness and a few other things. I was wondering about testing tonight as I expected that I was 13DPO. I have been counting from when I last saw EWCM and my CP which was very high and open.

However I thought before I write anything on here I would check my CP again, which is still mid softish and still feels very closed. (I can't feel the dimple bit at all) Anyway I noticed that there was CM present and when I looked at the CM it was stretchy and sticky like EWCM but not like my normal EW, it was more white, well very white actually and my EWCM is normally clear. I then wondered if it could be from the left over deposit from my DBF from yesterday as we BD'd the last four days.....TMI sorry!

Anywayzzzz this has obviously confused me no end now as I was getting excited thinking that I could be preggo and now I'm worried that I am only just starting to Ovulate or even worse that this is an anovulary moment for me due to the fact EWCM is present more then once in a cycle, I'm not temping so can't tell this way. The only thing I'm holding onto now is that my CP is mid, not high and it is closed. Thing is if I am Oing now then I have stressed myself out too much so wont get a BFP anyway even if I was.

Do you ladies think I should test? I'm feeling very upset and confused right now