24-6-2008 - So Here we go Again! 03/24/08 (4w2d)

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Well, after freaking out last month (see entries below), I decided to just enjoy my life the best that I can and wait patiently. This past week was Spring Break and DH and I did a LOT of projects around the house (built a patio cover, fixed up our back gate, fixed up his truck and my car, etc). We were EXHAUSTED. I was more and more nervous with each passing day because Friday was when AF was due. I was CONVINCED that I wasn't pregnant. I didn't feel pregnant, I hadn't even looked for signs. I "knew" it wouldn't happen this month. I had decided that the PCOS was against us and that getting pregnant with Maddie so quickly was just luck and we were in for a long ride. I had also managed to get yet ANOTHER yeast infection (like the 3rd one this year) and just wasn't thinking baby.

So Friday comes and no AF. I'm having cramps and sore BBs and just feeling icky, so I decided that AF was just going to come later in the day. I was running to the bathroom every hour or two checking for it, but nothing. Saturday I woke up and still no AF, so I told Jason that I wanted to take a pregnancy test, but it would be most effective it it was first morning urine (since it's more concentrated). He said "ok, can you hold it long enough to run to CVS?" So I jumped up, got dressed and ran to the pharmacy on the corner, bought a three-pack and came home. It was a kind I'd never used before - all the others would have a control line and another line. If it was positive it would have a plus sign. I took the test with Jason standing there and when I looked at it I thought it was negative. It had only two lines. I told him to check the instructions to find out what positive looked like. Turns out positive has TWO LINES! OMG, we're pregnant again!!

I came on here to leave notes on the TTC page and the week 4 page, when I saw I had new messages. When I finished looking at my messages I scrolled up to the top and noticed that it had been 3 months to the day that we had lost Maddie. THREE months ago TO THE DAY we lost our baby, and then we find out that we're having another one. And this time I have no fear!