22-7-2008 - MIA - update!

My mood while writing this blog: frustrated

I know I haven't been around much - but that would be because there hasn't been much new to say.

Still not pregnant.

Still don't know why.

Still trying everything to do it "right" and stay positive.

Frustrated? ya... little bit. But you know, I realize this makes no difference at all! I know that we will get pregnant when it is ment to be - I have known this forever. It does not make me feel any better. It does not make the hubs feel any better. Its hard to make your mind up about something, to be ready for a new chapter in your life, and just keep trying to get there to no avail. ahhh!! We'll make it - we have each other and we have support from our friends. Our family really doesn't know much about our TTC journey - and on puprose, it's not exactly dinner conversation ya know? And we kind of want them to be surprised when/if it actually does happen!!

Also - news on the life front that might make a little bit of a difference in this whole situation and also is making a very big difference at the present time. I have decided to take this year off of school and be a "real" contributing member of society. I am burnt out, need a break, can't concnetrate - just need something different right now. Its not making a few ppl very happy - but overall, most ppl in my life are supporting this decision and hubs is completly in agreement that I need to do what is best for me/us. So - maybe with the decreased stress [once i find a job!] will help?!! haha ya.... it'll help me - who knows if it will help in the baby dept!

sooo there is an update, i hope i have a good update for everyone sooner than later.....