well, this is my story...

i found out before Christmas of 07 that my boyfriend of 2+ years and i were pregnant. completely unplanned but extremely excited and i couldn't wait to be pregnant and have a beautiful baby. on February 9th, my boyfriend popped the question and told me that he had purchased the ring back in November and was waiting for the right moment. it was the best proposal. he even made me cry! (i'm telling you this part cuz a lot of jerks out there tried to say we were only getting married cuz i was pregnant) our first ob/gyn appointment was right before valentine's day and when we arrived at the doctor's office, they tried to use a doppler to hear the baby's heartbeat. no luck. they used the ultrasound machine. i was supposed to be 14 weeks pregnant, the baby was only 10 weeks... no heartbeat. i had to have a d&c done on valentine's day. we decided that maybe it wasn't our time and that we would just wait until after our wedding. the night before my bridal shower, i had a feeling that i was pregnant, i could feel it. i took a test and sure enough! two pink lines! i went to the doctor's, everything looked good at 4 weeks, i got married, went on my honeymoon and went back for a second appointment at 9 weeks. the baby was the perfect size, strong heartbeat, everything was great. i went back again for a 13 week appointment, and the doctor was using a doppler to search for the heartbeat, no luck. my heart dropped, not again! she decided to use an ultrasound, and there was my baby, at 9 weeks 4 days. again, the exact same thing happed to us, just two days before Thanksgiving. i went into surgery the next day and had another d&c. that was just a couple days ago. i have to go back to see the doctor and get blood test done to try and see what the problem is. i am so numb right now and have no heart. i feel like a robot or something. i feel like i am dreaming and that this is not happening again. my husband and i are going to try again but with possible hormone help and extra care. i am very scared but excited. i want to have a baby, in fact my husband and i want lots of children! i am hoping for the best, but preparing for the worst... wish me luck with this new journey i will be taking