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	Age: 20 Country: u.s.a. Province/region: City: corona Partner: Married Children: Pregnant: Yes Due date: 06 Nov ,2009 Occupation: accounting clerk
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10-6-2009 - mixed emotions

My mood while writing this blog:
stressed & excited

i’m having a hard time keeping my stress under control lately. i’ve been trying not to worry about money but it’s so hard. i work full time and i’m the only one who brings in a steady income. my husband is a tattoo artist and only gets paid when he tattoos obviously. i’m desperate to be a stay at home mom and i’ve been telling my hubby to get a regular mon-fri job but it’s hard to find jobs right now. it’s not that he wont go out and work it’s just hard to find. also, we had about $3,000 in savings and i told steve that i wanted to save that money for the baby and when we move out of our apartment (which will be in the next few months) well, since his work has been slow, we’ve been having to slowly use our savings to pay our bills and now our savings is down to only $250!!! i can’t believe all that money is gone and nothing to show for it, just fricken bills!! ugh, so frustrating. we only have the one car now (cuz of our accident) so we’re saving over $600 a month now but we’re still tight! unbelievable… anyways, i broke down last night and just started crying. this is my third pregnancy and with the last 2 m/c i never had the opportunity to be a SAHM so now that this pregnancy is almost half way done, i’m starting to freak out that i won’t be able to stay home. steve could watch the baby but, i want to be the one watching him. i can’t be away from my son 40+ hours a week!! i don’t feel like i’m asking for much, i don’t need lots of money or fancy things, a lot of women are SAHM. i want to be one of them!! so, of course i was crying last night cuz i just couldn’t hold it in anymore. ugh, okay now that i got that off my chest… on to better and happier things

so, i’ve been feeling little steven move for weeks now (love it) and i can see him when he kicks too. my hubby has tried to feel and can’t ugh. so yesterday he was kicking again so i told my husband to feel. usually when he kicks i’d ask, did you feel that? and he’d say no. so, i figured, i’m just not going to say anything. well, the baby kicked and my hubby says, i felt that! haha he had the biggest grin on his face and was laughing and surprised. he felt the baby kick a few more times and we both were laughing. i’m so happy he finally got to feel him kick cuz steve was starting to get bummed out a little. so, that’s my good and happy news.

thanks for reading my blog and forgive my weird, hormonal moods…

10 Comments on mixed emotions

preggomama - Wednesday, 17 Jun
everywoman dreams of being a stay at home mom and i know from experience that now days a lot of times it just isnt possible. i hate going to work 40 hours a week and being away from my son and my ex-boyfriend now i have to say at the time just didnt understand why i hate being away from him, men just dont have that bond we do with our babies. i wish you luck sweetie if you guys can make it work so you can stay home you will be very lucky, very. the last thing you want to have to do is get up every 2 hours with a crying baby and then have to leave with a sitter and go to work for 8 hours, oh god and your boobs will hurt so bad, so bad!!! good luck i hope it works out for you, i would love to stay home with my kids now that i am single i will be forced to go back to work way sooner than i wanted to and i am dreading that so much :( good luck!!! have a great day!!!

chellechelle - Thursday, 11 Jun
We all have weird hormonal moods and this is the place to vent, our men can only take so much!! Before my husband got his job I remember seeing our savings take a hit just like yours is. I know its hard not to stress about it but try not to, you have a healthy pregnancy so far and as the mommy its your job to keep that little angel as stress free and healthy as possile. When I feel stressed or even just angry the only thing that really helps everything melt away is a good workout. If you don't belong to a gym, take a long walk and attempt to clear your mind. You'll see that everything tends to work out.

Megan20 - Thursday, 11 Jun
lol aww so cute, cant wait to feel my baby. that sucks your hubby cant find work, neither can my boyfriend it sucks sooo bad!! stupid economy!!

BabySaunders - Wednesday, 10 Jun
Yay for baby kicks!

Boo for job situation. As others have said, we all know the feeling. My husband makes a lot more money than I do, but I still need to work in order to cover our mortgage. I really wanna see all the firsts for baby, so we'll have to figure something out.

karlilee - Wednesday, 10 Jun
I actually just quit my job yesterday so I can be a SAHM again. I have a son who is almost 2 now and I hate having to leave him every morning. I had to go back to work when he was 8 months old, it was the hardest thing I have ever done! I would definitley do anything you can to be able to spend the time with your baby. Though dads might do a good job, kids need their moms! :)

Because of the recession my hubby was laid off and could only find a job making $7 less an hour than he was making. It has been super hard but despite having NO money and living worse than paycheck to paycheck we still decided to have me stay home. He is going to pick up some extra hours at work and hopefully find some side jobs. (he is a mechanic/welder)

No matter what happens I know it will work out if you want it to. I would have your hubby find a part time job to make up for a little bit until the economy picks up a little. Just an idea...I am going to try to find a friend or family that needs a sitter while they are working Not only does that help you out but it helps them out too. Daycare is outrageous!

Good luck with everything and try to hang in there! It will work itself out and you can be a SAHM. :)

scarletwillow - Wednesday, 10 Jun
Aww, that's so great your hubby got to feel the baby! My husband finally did a couple nights ago too and it made him really excited!

I feel for you on the bills and stress about money. I am a SAHM (yay) and it is tough. We just have one car and have to rely on credit cards at the end of the month just to tide us over till the next pay check. My husband at least though DOES have a steady income (though it's not as much as we'd like). Unfortunately we don't have any savings. My husband may be able to get a better job soon, but as of right now we just have to wait and see for a few months. He's also in the national guard which gives us a coupel hundred buicks a month PLUS great health insurance (so that's always a plan B option).

Try not to let it get you down, things WILL work out. And I really believe that if you want to stay at home you guys can make it work. Maybe your husband could even still do tattoos part time but also get a steady job for more stability.

I hope things get better soon!

lindseymarie - Wednesday, 10 Jun
Im sorry about the job situation. I know exactly how you feel im torn because me and my boyfriend want to and would be married already if it weren't for our money situation. Since my dad died when I was only 18 I get 1,000 a month from his pension for the next 2 years however if I get married I get nothing. With that money I would be able to stay at home with the baby. If we get married I would have to work full time because my bf's job is in construction and its just not a steady income. And we would have to pay a fortune in child care. I hate not being able to get married but I think being home with the baby is more important now. Mabey you could get a work from home job? And have the best of both worlds, still bringing in money while being at home with the baby! It would be worth looking into at least. Good Luck I hope all works out... PS congrats on you and your hubby feeling baby's kicks =)

excitedmisty - Wednesday, 10 Jun
Hang in there...I know, I know easier said than done...but you still have another 20 weeks to come up with a plan! Opportunities can arise at any time! Move to Maryland, you can buy a house in my part for like $60,000 and there are lots of jobs ;0) Plus our boys can play together, LOL.

Maybe you can find a part-time job (just work weekends), and your husband can find a part-time job too to supplement his tattoo business. I started an Ebay business myself about 4 years ago. I started with $50.00, I went to yard sales and bought things that I knew I could resell for more and now I make $500-$1,500 a month. It's time for mama to get creative ;0) Hang in there girl!

Mandy-N-Eoins-Peanut - Wednesday, 10 Jun
I think with the recession hitting a lot of people hard, more and more people are going to be in the same boat. Try not to worry too much hun...things have a way of working out. Maybe get hubby to do up a few flyers to drum up a bit of work?

Navy Mommy 2009 - Wednesday, 10 Jun
I'm in the same boat as you are my dear. I am the main bread winner because of my military retirement and my current job. My husband works hard and does well, but a good percentage of his paycheck goes to gas; he drives 180 miles a day to work and back. Due to the economy he can't find another job closer to home and I want more than anything to stay at home. We just bought a new home too and now his Durango is breaking down, so today we have to get him a new truck to drive to work. that's going to be at least another $250 a month. I know exactly how you feel. Like you, I try not to stress about it, but it's hard. Just know you're not alone. BIG HUGS!!!!

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