23-4-2008 - Hi! I'm new!

My mood while writing this blog: happy

Hello everyone! My name is Jennifer and I'm new to the site. I accidentally stumbled upon it and I am very happy I did. I am from Dublin, Virginia but am currently living in Miami, Florida. Recently, I found out I am 6 weeks pregnant and my fiance is serving his second term in Iraq. This is my first pregnancy so naturally I am scared to death. I have no idea what to expect. To tell you the truth...I think I am still in denial because I haven't had any sickness or anything. I took three home pregnancy tests two weeks ago and they all confirmed I am pregnant. I am very happy about it, however I have grown extremely paranoid! Like I said, I don't really feel much different so I often wonder if this is really happening to me! I got very scared that maybe I wasn't real or maybe it would go away and I really don't want it to. I know it sounds rediculous, but I got very scared that it wasn't real. This week I have had some mood swings. I find that I get irritated at the smallest things and the other day I woke up very depressed for no reason. It really scared my fiance but I really had no idea why I felt so sad. I have also been having pains in my tummy that feel like a lot of gas pressure but I don't think I have gas...lol. I did get really scared about the pressure and pain in my tummy but I think it's all just constipation or something. I don't know. I am new to all of this so everyone's advice would be AWESOME! I go for my first ultrasound tomorrow and I am so excited. Maybe that will finally prove to me that this is really happening so I can stop worrying. Well...I'll probably never stop worrying. I guess that's all for now. I'm excited to hear from all you other mommy's-to-be and to hear your stories. I am very very happy to be here right now and it's nice to know I'm not alone in this even though the love of my life is over in Iraq for the whole thing. I don't know...it is possible he will be back for the birth...but I am afraid to get my hopes up.