16-7-2008 - Coming here helps

My mood while writing this blog: not sure

I feel ok at night time., i dont know why.

but coming here today has helped me as a lot of people have had the same feelings as me. Its hard for me to know what it feels like to be pregnant as i havnt been pregant before and anyone i seen pregnant was always happy and never complained apart from the odd sore back. never mentioned crying my eyes out in bed all day and feeling miserable.

stuffed my face with loads of food as i didnt eat all day, couldnt even face that. so think the sugar helped. I still will call the doc tomorrow as i am scared of being in such a state i cant go to the scan and i have to go. i am not looking forward to it. i wish i was but i am scared. sometimes its easier to pull the blanket over your head and pretend your normal but your not :(

anyway i would like to thanks thoese who read my blogs and helped me. also reading others stories have helped me also. I dont feel so alone then.