10-11-2008 - What a year...

My mood while writing this blog: amazed

So lately I've been really mushy when I think about my life and the things in it. I just feel the need to recap the past year or so. I am soo greatful for so many things.

Jf and I met in Oct of 2006..we were engaged by June of the following year..married March 11th of this year and March 19th found out we would be having a baby!! I remember the morning so clearly cuz it was 4AM or a bit after..the dog was with me in the bathroom ahhah and he got up needing to pee and wondered what was taking me so long in there haha. I think I must have gone through 30 or so tests by the time the thrill of seeing the line come up wore off!! :) And then I was just in awe! I never thought I could be lucky enough to have everything working well enough to get pregnant and have a baby!! I just never pictured something this HUGE actually happening in my life. But thats what I had started thinking about meeting someone I'd want to marry ..I had a fun but confusing decade with my 20s and never quite knew where I was meant to be or what I was meant to do ..and would I ever really love someone enough to be committed forever? Well I know where I'm meant to be now, who I'm meant to share my life with and that I will love him forever with all my heart. He knows me..you know the lil things you always wish someone would notice? He does..and the way he knows my slightest mood changes hahha it's funny. ANYWAY I'm sooo lucky to have found him and we both feel we came through a lot a deserve a happy loving relationship. Sooo if it took me till I was 32 to find him and appreciate a good man that is all worth it.

I knew I wanted to marry him after the first date..he proposed on the side of a mountain ..making it worth the horrible climb up sliding rock hahah. That was June 07 and Dec of that year he was going to be spending Xmas with his family in another province. Before he left we discussed babies and we decided it was time to start trying!! I was soooo excited and immediately googled anything to help and test strips etc. I even bought my diaper bag hahahha...ohhh gosh you can hardly tell I'm been dying to get to this point in my life. So we missed trying in Dec as he was away for the fertile time..but Jan and Feb was great practise. We thought we could get married before it happened and have one last trip just the 2 of us! My best days to conceive happened to be my birthday, the day we left on our trip. I HAD thought maybe we should skip March so we could take advantage of free drinks etc but when you wanna be a mommy you can't SKIP any time. So we tried anyway and off we went to Jamaica for our wedding!

I expected to walk down the aisle by myself and celebrate just the 2 of us. BUT my mom gave me the wonderful surprise of sending my brother (my lifetime hero hehhe) and my sister and their spouses there to be with us! We ended up running across them in the lobby of this giant resort and I totally lost it. They were hoping to have caught my reaction on film but weren't ready to come across us at this moment hahha. Ohh it was the best so I had my brother to walk me down the aisle. I always pictured that.

ANYWAY this was March 11th..4 days after my best conception days...March 16th we got home...March 19th I woke up with the urge to pee on a stick hehhe and there she was HAHAHHHA. I guess she didn't want to miss Jamaica cuz she had been with us the whole time. AWWWWW I could just cry thinking of her sweet lil self. It happened that I had a dream after our wedding night that I was handed this lil pink bundle and her name was Madeleeny..hehhehe...so I've always felt this was our girl. Nothing is 100% with girls I suppose but at the last u/s it was again confirmed. I just can't wait to meet her.

This whole pregnancy has been so easy ....well I mean it could have been so much harder. I had SOME rough times with my back...the heartburn is hardly fun...and high blood pressure was kinda scary. BUT for the most part I've been very happy and comfortable. I must say it helps to have such a great husband and support from my mom. It's been great that 2 years ago mom and dad moved to the same city as me..so have been here from the beginning of my relationship with JF and now for my pregnancy and soon to be birth of our first child.

sigh..I must sigh cuz just soo many good things have happened. The few years before all this had been rough ones and I know it is true that you must go through some tough times to fully appreciate all you have. Well I do...and I now I just sit here in awe that truly for real, I will be a mommy soon....REALLY REALLY going to happen...she's all grown in there and one day will decide its her birthday and everytthing will change. I'm so ready for this and thankful for everything along the way and to come. This site has been a great source of comfort and companionship when noone else wants to hear about your strange symptoms and issues hahha. Here's to all of us having a wonderful birth experience. hugs to all