05-3-2009 - 3 weeks & 6 days PP

My mood while writing this blog: energetic!!

Today, I am 3 weeks & 6 days PP!!

I "OFFICIALLY" started my diet, this past Friday! I decided to go ahead and start it, when the effortless weightloss stopped!!

Today is the 7th day of my diet, and I have lost 7 pounds so far... so pretty much a lb per day!!

My 1st goal is to lose 15! I'm almost halfway there! When I reach this goal, I am going to start tanning again! I'm not loving the pale skin!!

After I reach my 1st 15lb goal, I am going to aim for another 15, and when I finally reach that one, I'm going to evaluate the way I feel & look, and see where I need to go from there... then set my final goal! I'm wanting to be where I want (weight-wise) by mid-summer!! I know I'll lose fast @ first, then it'll eventually slow down, so I'm trying to keep that in mind!! The weather felt great yesterday, so I walked about a mile & a half! Today is supposed to be warm too, so I plan on walking again!!

I have work-out videos that I've been doing, and that helps alot when the weather is nasty, or too cold to take the kids out! As for the dieting... I am counting my calories! I'm pretty much doing the same plan I did last year! Last year, I lost 50+ pounds... from January 1st, up until I found out I was pregnant, at the end of May! Of course, I gained my pregnancy weight, (40 pounds... YUCK), but I've already lost that, and am back down to where I left off on my diet!! I lost ALOT of weight last year, but I still have a WAY to go!! I'm so sick of being LARGE MARGE! lol! In high school, I was SoOoO friendly.... go up and talk to ANYONE (and I do mean anyone), always happy, love to get out and do things, buy clothes & shoes.... just the whole works.... But, My senior year is when I started gaining... and it's slowly piled up, and I'm just not the person I used to be!! I'm SOOOOO self-consious! I HATE going into stores, because I feel like everyone is staring, I still like to go out and do things, but DEFF. not like I did, I HATE shopping for clothes & shoes, because I always end up depressed because they don't fit right... I'm really just NOT the person I used to be, and I hate it! So... I'm working on getting back to where I used to be! I'm getting there... slowly BUT surely!! I see people EVERYDAY, that are like 3 OR 4 times BIGGER than me.... and I wonder how they do it... I can't even imagine!! And, I'm not really even all that big, I mean I'm bigger, but not someone that you would stop, and be like WOW!!! My self-esteem SUCKS! I've never had a WHOLE LOT, but I used to have more than I do now!!!!

I got my hair done yesterday! I got it highlighted on the top, and brown on the bottom, and I got it re-stacked! My stack was getting REALLY old, and starting to look funky, when it was fixed! I LOVE love LOVE my new color(s)!!

Anyway, I guess i'm done whining for now! haha.....

I hope to update next week, and have more progress to report!!!

If anyone has any diet tips, I am ALWAYS open to new ideas!

Hope all is well....

P.S.-

School is going great & I LOVE cappucino delight Slim-Fast!!!

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Bentley Quaid is doing great! He weighs 11lbs & 6oz., as of last Friday!