Girls I am a mess! No getting around it, physically and emotionally! This week has been the most difficult of any pregnancy I have ever had, seriously it is kicking my butt!!!! I just need to vent and get it out, honestly I think my husband is getting tired of hearing about it, especially me complaining about being constipated! lol I also think he is getting tired of coming home everyday to a zombie wife, who needs to get out of her pajamas, put some makeup on and fix her hair!!!

First of all, my constipation was so uncomfortable I thought I was going to lose my mind. It had been nearly 2 weeks since I had a regular bowel movement and I had tried so many things, water-water-water, apple juice, benefiber, bran, fruit, colace stool softeners and still nothing was happening, finally today I drank 3 cups of coffee in 30 mins and within an hour I finally had a normal bowel movement! Oh my goodness, I felt human again!!! I didn't want to drink teh coffee b/c I know the caffeine isn't god for baby, but I am so happy I did! And believe me, I will do it again if needed. I know a couple cups occasionally will do no harm!

Then there is the nauseousness! Oh my!!! I have nauseous all week, I am hoping it was from the constipation. I could barely eat anything without it making me sick and then if I didn't eat, then it would make me sick too. It has been difficult to find a good balance.

Then there are my huge throbbing breast! Ladies, I have been taking my measurements for months now (since I was trying to lose weight) and since I ovulated 4 weeks ago I have grown 3 inches in my breast! THREE INCHES!!!! Holy molly! I now have two bras I can wear. My breast didn't grow that much with my entire pregnancy with my daughter, this crazy! Oh and they hurt, I woke up 3 times last night b/c they were throbbing and it woke me up, I also woke up another 3 times needing to pee!!!! And this brings me to my next challenge,I am tired all the time, truly I wake up tired. I feel my best in the afternoon, but by dinner time I am exhausted. I do feel so blessed that I am staying home now and not working, I really am not sure how I would manage a job right now!

Last but not least, I am still having headaches and find myself dizzy and light-headed often. I actually broke a glass this evening b/c I got dizzy and my eye sight went black for a bit. Then I started crying b/c it was the 2nd glass I broke this week! I am actually a bit shaky at times too. Oh and indigestion too! : 0~

I know a lot of women feel this way during pregnancy, but I can not help but to feel something is wrong. Not with baby but with me, like maybe my blood pressure is high or maybe I am low on iron or something, I am not sure, I just know I do not feel well and find it hard to believe all of this is from pregnancy. The nauseousness and boobs yeah def from pregnancy, but headaches, dizziness, shaky....just not sure. I also feel like I have a fever alot, but then I take my temp and it is in normal range.

I do not mean to complain or sound dramatic, I am so happy and feel blessed to be pregnant. I truly am grateful every day to have this miracle inside of me, but this week has been a real challenge, I can only hope next week is better!

Take care all

Ashley

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Week 7

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Week 8 Fist Doc's Apt

Hello Ladies : )

I just got home from my 1st doctor's apt and everything went well! They did the usual........blood, urine, pelvis exam, history, ect. I didn't actually visit with my doctor but with his PA and she was very kind, in fact everyone in the office was very nice! I did have a moment were I broke down, after telling her about my miscarriages and the complications I have had with this pregnancy she told me that still they would not do an ultrasound till my 18th week. She explained to me that if I was going to miscarry unfortunately there wasn't much they could do. I told her I understood that but needed her to understand that if in fact something was wrong I NEEDED to know, and it would kill me emotionally and possibly even physically ( you can not keep that stuff in there that long without developing an infection) to have to wait till my 18th week. After she seen my legitimate concern and the tears in my eyes, she told me she would ask the doctor if I could have one early. She came back and told me they would do one today!!! I was so happy!!!!

So we went to the ultrasound room and right away was able to see baby : ) Heartbeat was 164, my husband was smiley from ear to ear when he heard the heartbeat. Baby is measuring 8 wks and 4 days (which is exact according to my first ovulation day) Doctor gave me a due date of May 6th, 2010. So I will be changing my due date on here, just move me forward two days.

I will upload pictures soon, They did a 2D and a 4D which is really neat. You still cannot see detail and baby looks like a peanut, but with the 4D you can see baby and the umbilical cord.

Thank you ladies for all your support and sharing this beautiful/scary journey with me!

: ) Ashley