15-10-2008 - Still hangin on....

My mood while writing this blog: READ, sore, tired, swollen...

Im still here, 5 days to go and no sign of Baby Cash coming. I saw the midwife on Monday, she checked me for the 1st time, HOLY CRAP, Im not going to have her do that again. My cervix is up really high and she had a hard time finding it, i think Ill just hold out and wait to see when he wants to get things moving. It doesnt matter anyways, I can be checked like I was and NADA and then the next day be dialted so Im not going to stress about that anymore.

My due date is Monday, I have an ultrasound that day to see how much he weighs. I think that it will be a bummer to go to an ultrasound on my due date. I should be in the hospital that day!!! Who knows, maybe I wont make it that long. Im not counting on that though.

Things are going good with my Husband, he has been off for 2 weeks (would have been nice to have the baby already while he has been home, but, what cha gonna do??) but he is going back to work tonight....tonight as in 10 pm to 6 am!!! Thats gonna suck when babys here, it would be really nice to have him home with me to help me all night long!! Cause the only ones thats gonna be with me are my nutty mother in law....who is quite likely going to drive me up the FUCKING wall, and my father in law, who is very laid back and cool about everything.

Oh....dont let me forget the 16 year old weiner dog that I really wish would just die already so that I dont have to think about him. As soon as I wake up Im so happy...until I realize that I have to go and deal with this stupid dog. I let him run my life, I spend my days at home now, when I SHOULD be chilling out and doing nothing, resting, worrying about when and where this dog is going to piss on the floor next, why he is walking all over the house and NEVER sleeping, watching him get up every 4 minutes to go outside and pee (I take away the water so Im not dealing with that as much as before....IM LEARNING). I am absolutely not going to be catering to this dog when the babys here. I dont care that much, Ill lock his ass up or leave him outside for awhile.

OK...so...Im done now. You can see where my stress lies right now.