05-11-2008 - Baby Tharp, birth story, etc.

My mood while writing this blog: Completely Smitten

Cash Brennan Tharp is home, not a single thing went the way that I expected, which is what I expected, lol. Take a look at his picture, I know that everyone thinks that their baby is beautiful but DAMN. Im in love.

We ended up being induced, Wed night we got called to the hospital around 11:30, by 2am we were in the room and they were putting Cytotec in me, we did 3 rounds of Cytotec and made it to 3cm...barely. Then, I was completely effaced so they started Pitocin. Let me tell you, I was terrified of the Cytotec, I looked up information about Cytotec and had myself so darn scared of the stuff before going and , Pitocin is what I needed to be scared of, that shit is NO JOKE. I began to have contractions in about a half hour and it really started to be bad aound 5pm. My midwife was there and my Husband was there trying to get me through it all. Labor is hard and contractions, once they get crazy, they get CRAZY. I was told that if I hadnt been induced that labor would not have been nearly as bad but HOLY CRAP. Jason kept trying to get me to take the Epidural, I didnt want to do it, I really thought that I could get through the pain.

My midwife had me on the toilet, on all 4's, birth ball, standing, every position that she could think of. It was awful and all I wanted to do was give up, I was in so much pain.

I gave up at 8pm. I was so disappointed but it hurt SO BAD. My midwife got me through those last 2 hours cause every single time I had a contraction I wanted to stop, she would tell me to wait until I got through it and we'd talk.

When the epidural came, I had 4 contractions while they gave it to me, I just wanted it to stop. Now, going back thinking about it, if you asked me what labor felt like, I couldnt tell you. I completely blacked out. i just remember that it hurt A LOT.

All of a sudden everyone is standing by the monitor, they put an internal fetal monitor in me but I wasnt sure why. The babys heart rate dropped from 150 to about 75 in minutes, I also dialated to a 7 (from 3) in 15 minutes, I thought that everything was going good, I was only 3 cm away. But, then,all these people started to come in my room, nurses, doctors and everyone was whispering and talking about what was on the monitor.

My midwife left and came back, she had called the doctor and said that he was coming in. When he got there he said that there was a problem and they thought that the cord was being blocked. After all this...he ordered a C-Section.

I hadnt even considered mentally preparing for a section although I will say, I had a feeling before we left that I would end up with one, I just had a feeling and it happened. I was soo scared. And it happened.

Everything ended up being fine, we went to surgery immediately, in 15 minutes it was over. He was beautiful, he IS beautiful. I am so happy. My husband is doing amazing. Im in love.

Im over the C-Section, it hurt and we were in the hospital for 4 days but its all okay. Look what I got out of it.