13-8-2008 - Life is kinda sucky

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Well i have to say i just want to take the owner of the place i work and give him a piece of my mind. i am a manager at a kennel we are connected to a pet store and an animal hospital. the hospital has 5 dr's. one of the doc's is the owner of all three buisnesses. you would think that he would be a little more willing to help out the persom that keeps one whole side of his buisness running and taking in a profit, but noooooo. sorry, i am jsut so upset yesterday i found out that my 6 week maturnity leave is unpaid and they even attempted to turn off my benefits. like hello how are baby and me supposed to go to the docs??? for a man with three kids of his own how is a supposed church going man... he isnt very sympethic to the fact i only have a month and a half to go and i am still working 60 hrs a week to make sure all of the boarding animals are taken care of and the clients are going home happy. losing my pay for 6 weeks is going to put us in such a bind i dont know how im going to afford to come back its going to but us a month behind on all of our bills. then when i do come back to work we have to pay for daycare and gas is still out ragious. i drive an hour to and from work everyday, work 12 hr days rarely have a lunch break, i have cut payroll in half compared to last year, and have made our goal twice so far since ive taken over which wasnt to long ago. of coarse i am salaried so its not like my ass is getting any over time i do it because i love my job and i want to do good because i thought this was a company worth my sweat and blood. apparently they dont feel the same way about me. i bring them in so much money granted they would make money if i was here of not but the fact is no one would do the job like me and they know it. im so upset that my dumb self has given them so many hours and so much energy and they can't even give me 6 weeks. because regardless of what the doctor says i cant afford to lose 6 wks pay. not only that i wouldnt be able to afford to come back after the baby were born because ill have so many bills to catch up on plus daycare at that point and the gas to go back and forth i have no idea what pat and i are going to do. he just got a new job so im hoping that will keep us afloat for a while but god only knows. i am so emotional bout this i really have no idea how we are going to make ends meet if i cant make any income. and ontop of everything else if they find out that i do have another job for that 6 week period of time i lose my job completely and get fired. its a catch 22 i dont know what we are doing to do???????i even offered to come in and do paperwork to make up for the fact im not making anything for 6 wks and they told me NO that i had to take my 6 wks. what am i going to do i wish the world was free and i didnt have to work so hard to go no where and get nothing for it.