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| ashlidue1007 is 6 days overdue and is now in week 40 | |
 | Age: 22 Country: US Province/region: South carolina City: Moncks corner Partner: pat Children: Pregnant: Yes Due date: 07 Oct ,2008 Occupation: kennel manager |
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well last night is one for the books. one would think that goin to babies r us and registering for new baby stuff would be the best thing ever. i know i thought it would be. well i was in the store with pat and we were both walking around scanning like crazy and it hit me... im never going to be able to use any of this stuff nor am i going to be the one really raising my child. as you can imagine i got quite upset and was just so distant all night. i work so much to keep pat and i a float when it comes to our bills i have no idea how im going to make time for my baby...how flippen horrible does that sound. i know i get 6 weeks but is that really enough time to bond. i don't want to be one of those moms that has to drop off her brand new baby boy off at some daycare center. i dont care how qualified or great they are they are not me. but on the other hand i need to pay our bills so the baby has a place to sleep and food to eat. i wish pat would find a good job i don't know what he is waiting for. his job now was ok when it was just me him and our cat n dog but we are going to have a baby we need to feed. i never thought of myself as being a working mom i know it sounds old fashion...i like the whole idea of being a stay at home mom. even pat's screw up brothers managed to support their families so their wives could stay home and take care of the baby...i get one day off a week i don't ever get to sleep in i get up at 5 every day. it wouldn't be so bad if i didn't work 12 hour days. i don't know what to do ...in my typical fashion i would run and move else where and jsut leave but how do i do that now. and i dont want to leave i like my job i just wish i did less of my job and more of my home life...i am so lost.. what to do???? i am sick of worring if we are going to be ok i usually when i gets this bad just do it myself but i need help i am beat and exausted and i need some help with doing all of this. i know its not pats fault but he isnt doing anything about it eather... i have no one to blame but myself. i could always run home to my mom and my sister but i dont want to leave all that pat n i accomplished down here. and where would i put my dog and cat??? there is just so much as u can tell going on in my head...im sorry for the rant to myself
2 Comments on hello reality
jaskay - Monday, 26 May
Dont feel discouraged, things might seem bleek now. I was 19 yrs wit my 1st child and not working, neither was the dad. Somehow we managed to survive, I found a job when my baby was 2 mnths old. The sad part was leaving her to go to work. But I worked my butt off to give her everything I never had. 3rd baby on the way and am happy to say I have my own company, dont give up!
slg3233 - Sunday, 25 May
Finally, someone who feels the same way that I feel!!!!! I know exactly how you feel!!! I am goign on my 3rd child and if I want to have our own place, I have to get a job after the baby. I hate it though!!!! I would love to be a stay at home mom myself! If you need to talk I am here!!!!!
| 25-5-2008 - hello reality |  My mood while writing this blog:pretty down |
well last night is one for the books. one would think that goin to babies r us and registering for new baby stuff would be the best thing ever. i know i thought it would be. well i was in the store with pat and we were both walking around scanning like crazy and it hit me... im never going to be able to use any of this stuff nor am i going to be the one really raising my child. as you can imagine i got quite upset and was just so distant all night. i work so much to keep pat and i a float when it comes to our bills i have no idea how im going to make time for my baby...how flippen horrible does that sound. i know i get 6 weeks but is that really enough time to bond. i don't want to be one of those moms that has to drop off her brand new baby boy off at some daycare center. i dont care how qualified or great they are they are not me. but on the other hand i need to pay our bills so the baby has a place to sleep and food to eat. i wish pat would find a good job i don't know what he is waiting for. his job now was ok when it was just me him and our cat n dog but we are going to have a baby we need to feed. i never thought of myself as being a working mom i know it sounds old fashion...i like the whole idea of being a stay at home mom. even pat's screw up brothers managed to support their families so their wives could stay home and take care of the baby...i get one day off a week i don't ever get to sleep in i get up at 5 every day. it wouldn't be so bad if i didn't work 12 hour days. i don't know what to do ...in my typical fashion i would run and move else where and jsut leave but how do i do that now. and i dont want to leave i like my job i just wish i did less of my job and more of my home life...i am so lost.. what to do???? i am sick of worring if we are going to be ok i usually when i gets this bad just do it myself but i need help i am beat and exausted and i need some help with doing all of this. i know its not pats fault but he isnt doing anything about it eather... i have no one to blame but myself. i could always run home to my mom and my sister but i dont want to leave all that pat n i accomplished down here. and where would i put my dog and cat??? there is just so much as u can tell going on in my head...im sorry for the rant to myself
2 Comments on hello reality
jaskay - Monday, 26 May
Dont feel discouraged, things might seem bleek now. I was 19 yrs wit my 1st child and not working, neither was the dad. Somehow we managed to survive, I found a job when my baby was 2 mnths old. The sad part was leaving her to go to work. But I worked my butt off to give her everything I never had. 3rd baby on the way and am happy to say I have my own company, dont give up!
slg3233 - Sunday, 25 May
Finally, someone who feels the same way that I feel!!!!! I know exactly how you feel!!! I am goign on my 3rd child and if I want to have our own place, I have to get a job after the baby. I hate it though!!!! I would love to be a stay at home mom myself! If you need to talk I am here!!!!!
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