14-3-2009 - Miscarriage

My mood while writing this blog: numb/sad

So I had to goto the ER last night. I had bleeding from about 11am that day, and had slight period type constant pain that got worse throughout the day. By late evening the bleeding got worse that I had to wear a pad, so after I put my little one to bed, I had something to eat, went to safeway and got some magazines and then went to the ER. I waited 2.5 hours to even been seen, then another hour in the room.

When the doctor came in, he asked a ton of questions, where the pain was, how much bleeding etc. Then he said there are 3 options, 1. An internal exam, which can lead to false results, 2. An ultrasound, 3. It could be eptomic because of where your pain is (Which I honestly dont think it is, because I think I would be in a lot more intense pain if it was for being 11 weeks.) Luckily I had my blood test done that day, so the doctor was able to get them. My levels were 6793. Which to me gave me the answer that I am having a miscarriage. I was there all by myself because my husband was at home with my son, and my son was so sick. He has been having diahhrea explotions and projectile vomiting for 4 days now. So I didnt feel comfortable leaving him with anyone but myself or my husband. So fighting back the tears the whole time epecially while the doctor was there. But I managed not to break down infront of the doctors or nurses.

So the option I chose was an ultrasound, which is happening at 1.30pm today. Please pray for me. I am so nervous, but I am sure I already know the answer. I am just praying for a miracle. After I have the ultrasound at a different hospital I have to go back to my hospital and wait for the results.

I am probably going by myself again. My husband might come but I am not sure. My sons Grandma may look after him, but I dont know if I want to leave him. You feel extra guilty when all this is going on, all you want to do is hold you son and cry.