03-3-2010 - 26 weeks - due dates and anniversaries

My mood while writing this blog: ok

WOW, well I can't believe that I am now 26 weeks pregnant! My next goal is 32 weeks when my local hospital will take me and I won't have to go the the state's maternity hospital which is quite far away from where I live. I am feeling a little more confident now, my niece was born at 26 weeks and she is now a healthy 9 year old :) Some times it feels like I have been pregnant for so long (since I spent most of last year in early pregnancy with my losses) but other days it feels like my due date will be here before I know it!

I have been feeling a little down this week, I am so greatful that my husband is the most wonderful man in the world and has been so supportive and caring this week. I have been able to talk through a lot of my feelings with him, but I thought that it might help to blog about how I have been this week. On the 21st of Feb, it was the one year anniversary of my d&c with the first baby that I lost last year. It was discovered at my 12 week scan that I had a blighted ovum. That day really changed my life forever. My second loss last year, the baby was due on the 27th of Feb. Yep, it's been a hard week... I love my son so much that I am carrying now, but I am also still so sad for the babies that I lost. I guess in a way I wish that I had concieved him earlier so that I didn't have to go through so much pain. My friend is having her baby today (she is being induced) and I must admit it's been hard to see her grow and think 'that's how big I should be now' and 'that's how many weeks I should be'. I hope that I don't cry when I go in and see her and the baby! ( I am so happy for her though that everything has gone smoothly in her pregnancy). But I am so glad that she didn't have the baby on the 27th, the whole day I was worried that she would deliver.

On a lighter note, my little boy is now able to kick me with such strenght that it is starting to hurt! Everytime he does a big kick, it's enough for me to say "Ouch!!!" but it is always with the biggest smile on my face. Sorry that this blog is a bit all over the place.

Thanks for listening. Sticky baby dust to all xxxxxxx