For me a successful pregnancy would be the most incredible thing in this world…

I’ve had 2 miscarriages in the past.

I was much younger, dumber and under a lot of stress due to the fact that I was unexpectedly pregnant. And the guy in my life for those weren’t exactly the best people to have had children with. But during both of those instances I felt I could handle it eventually.

First was at 16 years old. My body was not ready and my mind was even further away from being ready. But it still hurt physically and emotionally. I never felt pregnant; it was just my missed period that clued us into what was going on.

Second was at 20 years old. Apparently my body still was not ready, even if I thought my mind was. He added a lot of stress to the situation asking me to have an abortion. I refused because I knew my body and didn’t think I would make it through the next two weeks let alone 9 months. I never felt pregnant here either but I was worried because we knew we had made a mistake a few weeks back.

Well now I am 28 years old and pregnant… again. And extremely happy about it! I don’t recall ever being this happy about being pregnant… This one was a complete surprise! We didn’t think either of us had everything going on that would actually make a pregnancy happen. At this point I was assuming that I just couldn’t carry children and it takes some major work on his part for his guys to come out. Not that that was out method of B.C. We just figured it was unlikely to happen as a surprise for us and we would have to plan that out if we wanted it which we never really talked seriously about at all. Well guess what… SURPRISE!!

He headed California for his Grandfather’s funeral and was staying there for 3 weeks. I went out and joined him for a few days to attend the service and meet that side of his family for the first time ever. On my plane ride home I started crying my eyes out at the idea of him being gone for the next few weeks… My first thought being “what is going on here, I’m not my mother and I don’t get emotional like her!” That’s when I first started suspecting something may be up. So when I got home I took an HPT and got a faint positive. A faint freaking positive! What is that anyway! LOL! Then I proceeded to take about 12 more over the next few days. All of them confirming my pregnancy. Which lead me to a few blood tests at my doctor's office.... All is going really well so far this time. Last test was right between 5 - 6 weeks and I was at 6500. So they feel that I am good enough to not need anything else before my first visit on the 18th of March. This time I actually have some symptoms! I was starving all the time for the first 5 weeks. Now it's back and forth between nausea and dying to eat something! My boobs are ridiculously swollen and veiny already! I'm only 5 ft, 110 lbs with large C's before pregnancy. My only complaint which I refuse to actually complain about is constipation... It's kinda killing me! All I want to do is put more food in and nothing is coming out... It makes for very uncomfortable days but I will take every suppository and laxative they allow me to at this point. Actually I will take every symptom under the sun to the 10th degree if it means this will be a successful pregnancy for us!!!

My b/f is so excited! He is beyond thrilled. I was scared to drop the bomb on him as soon as he returned from California, but he was so happy for us! I didn't even know he had thought about us really having kids someday together. Let alone thought about it soon.

As for now we're both trying to get ready for baby but we're taking our time. We're scared to get too excited because it's still so early... But since we both feel really good about it, and so does EVERYONE around me this time I do get quite excited at times....

I guess that's all there is to my story for now...

This just goes to show me that "friends with benefits" never stays just that... lol! Although I've lucked out with an incredible guy who is better than anyone else I've ever known in this world.

Thank you Tyrus, for just being you, I love you and cannot wait for our little man to arrive!

ps - Yes I'm certain it's a boy... Called that the day I found out.....