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10-2-2009 - its nights like this...

My mood while writing this blog:
miserable

hey there ladies, i hope everyone is doing alright,

i'm sure your doing better than i am,

considering i'm sicker than dog sick! yay me!

this friday will mark 2 months that my husband has been deployed. while i still

remember that i only have 10 until he comes home, 4 until aiden comes, i'm still really depressed.

i keep telling myself that he is doing something very good, and don't get me wrong i'm very proud of him for serving his country. but this isn't fair.

its not fair that i'm going through this alone, its not fair that he is missing out on everything, the first kick, the ultrasounds, everything...even the birth. its just not fair.

i've gotten really good at hiding my emotions, i've become cold in a sense. i do not let people see me down, i don't let them know if its killing me, cause no matter how i look at it, this is his job and as much as i hate it, he has to do what he is told.

i just really miss him, and i wish he were home, but i know i'll have to wait. it makes it a little harder since i live with my brother and his wife, and when they get affectionate i wanna cry because i know its gonna be at least another 5 to 6 months before i get that.

i really am so proud of him, and couldn't see myself with anyone else.

i just feel lonely...

not to mention i'm sick so i really wish he were here to hold me!

ugh...sorry ladies, i just needed to get that outta my system...thanks for reading if you did..

happy pregnancies, and STICKY BABY DUST to those wishing for a BFP this month!!

9 Comments on its nights like this...

skatrose - Wednesday, 11 Feb
awww. hun. I just got to your blog today and I totally get it. I know that lonely feeling. Feel free to vent and complain whenever you want. It is definitely hard doing it alone. Us military wives need to stick together. It gets lonely and sometimes you wonder how you're gonna make it through the day....but you just try take it one day at a time. You are doing so great. Hang in there sweetie. Let me know if you ever need to vent or talk

~Tarin~ - Wednesday, 11 Feb
You have every right to feel the way that you do! And it is okay to feel the way that you do too! We are always hear for you! *HUGS*

brettany - Wednesday, 11 Feb
aww.. hang in there sweetie. My ex-bro-in-law and his wife were in a similar situation... He is AF and was deployed 3 weeks before their baby was born. He didnt even get to meet his son until He was 14 months old.

BabyPinson - Wednesday, 11 Feb
I couldn't imagine how it is to go through that! I am so sorry you and feeling down and alone! I am sure it bothers him just as much that he is missing everything! Once he comes back how long will it be before he gets deployed again? I know he is doing something so good for our country but I would feel the same way as you! I hope you get to feeling better! Just try to stay positive! :)

MyDennisBaby - Wednesday, 11 Feb
My boy is gone right now to. Not as long as yours though, he will be back at the end of april. Only for seven days tho. :( that kills me that I only get seven days, but I know they will be my Happiest!!! but I know how those nights feel. Every letter I get from him he always says just keep praying... I know I couldnt tell you to not worry about it cuz when people tell me that I just think they have NO IDEA!! I guess all i could say is I'm in the same situation right now if you ever want to talk..

torybailey - Wednesday, 11 Feb
Hey hun! Im so sorry that you have to deal with this! I understand it must be super hard on you! Things will get better though, and SOON you will have your husband, and little Aiden in your arms! I hope you feel better soon too. Being sick during pregnancy is the worst!!

the scroggins - Wednesday, 11 Feb
i can totally understand. :( you do way better then me. if i was in your position id be posting a blog everyday and sayin how i cant do this. you are strong girl. it takes a stronger kinda woman to deal with deployment while being pregnant. i can honestly admit that i'm NOT one of those. lol. i hope you get better. something has been goin around. bein sick and prego is a good way to get depressed :(

cheryl01 - Tuesday, 10 Feb
Hi.... sometimes we have to have faith and pray that maybe he will be allowed to be with you at that time..through GOD everything is possible..just pray and have faith. God Will deal with the rest.

mrs estrada - Tuesday, 10 Feb
Its really hard living the life as a military wife. when my husband left was so hard. he left for a year 5months, I cried for months became a drunk drop out of school couldnt think, I would watch and wait into that phone ring.
now hes home not for good we just moved again some where else, but im so happy to be pregnant and happy hes here. stay strong know Yes your husband out there doing his JOB its a different job then any other job,

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