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12-3-2009 - when will it end???

My mood while writing this blog: sooo pissed!!

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ughhhhh!!!! i woke up this morning at 7 to go to my doctor's appointment at 8, and when i get there my doctor isn't there because she is in labor in delivery, i was supposed to get my glucose test done today but nooooo i have to go back next tuesday, which kinda pissed me off, cause i don't wanna have to wake up and do this shit again.

then i remember we got paid today, so i paid most of our bills and got a storage unit cause i have a lot of my husbands stuff he couldn't take with him to iraq, even with a military discount its gonna cost 50 dollars a month. after paying our bills and getting my dog a bigger kennel (which cost 139. and some change) we were left with like 600 dollars to last us until the first, and i still have to go to killeen tomorrow to get another military i.d. spouse card cause i was a dumbass and lost mine, cause i'm just one smart cookie and can not figure out where i left that piece of shit.

i'm so aggravated right now, and today isn't gonna get better, not with these hormones cause i'm about ready to rip someone's head off, not to mention i feel bad cause that is 600 dollars for me and my hubby to split, and that is not enough, and we still need to put some in savings.

i'm having a bad day, i watch a three year old(my niece) and every word she has said today from 7 am to now is really irking me, like i wanna shoot myself.

i woke up on my back this morning, which worried me, cause it hurts now, but aiden is ok cause i can feel him moving and kicking. i feel freaking huge, even with a hoodie on people are starting to notice and asking me when i'm due, i'm not ashamed of him in any way, and bring on the weight cause i will do whatever it takes for him to be healthy, but i want people to leave me alone. i'm about to be 25 weeks, have 15 weeks left til i get to see my little guy and have my hubby home for 2 weeks and 1 day, but i feel like its taking forever....just hoping he'll wait until he is ready, no need to come early....and i tell him that everyday, to just take his time.

i hope i'm not the only one freaking out like this, i thought my hormones had slown down a bit, but ha don't see that happening. ughhhh i just wanna strangle someone or something right now!!


sorry about the ranting and raving, i just feel not like myself at all. and i want my hubby home, cause it never seemed to be this bad when he was here.....only 9 months until he is home for good.....question is, can i handle all this stress....right now....HELL NO!!


well thanks for letting me vent....its only 2 here so there might be more a comin'

happy pregnancies and sticky baby dust

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5 Comments on when will it end???


nysamantha20 - Thursday, 16 Apr
hey, i was looking on this website of this really cool thing to upload pregnancy memories on.. i'm thinking of getting one. But, I thought of you because it says you can get one for free if your partner is overseas in some branch of the military. Check it out, and let me know if you do it! I'm intrested to see if its for real!

http://www.digitimecapsule.com/Military_Moms.htm

skatrose - Sunday, 15 Mar
Hey I just wanted to comment on your blog, since I haven't had the chance to yet. I know just how you feel. Sometimes it feels as if everything is falling down around you and you are just stuck in the middle of a giant mess. That's how it is, and I know especially how hard it can be with your hubby deployed. But, you have such a strong heart, and I know you'll make it through. Most women have no idea what you are going through. It is definitely tough. You aren't the only preggo one feeling crazy and hormones out of control--trust me! You've got a lot going on, and a lot to handle, but you'll get through it. Hopefully everything has calmed down some. Just know that there are us other fellow military wives you can lean on anytime. =) And everyone on this site is really supportive and great too--military wife or not. Hope things start getting a bit better. Sounds like you need a pedicure or a massage, or someone to spoil you!

*Codys Mommy* - Thursday, 12 Mar
I know its hard i have been in that boat! My hubby has not been over seas yet but I know what the $$ issue feels like!! It will all get better in due time. It might feel like the worse day ever but just remember it will end! Tomorrow will be a different day and thats all what matters! Just remember to relax, its the best thing for you!! Good luck with everything!!

brettany - Thursday, 12 Mar
Your not the only one hun. I have those days alot it seems. The other day I just felt like crying for no reason... and I work with middle school kids and Im like on the verge of breaking down... one of the ikky 7th grade boys said something smart ass to me and i had to leave the room cuz it hurt my feelings! WTF!
I know how your feeling and it will keep happening, just ups and downs. Do your best to relax and taking a bath or reading a book always helps me.
As far as the sleeping on your back, its inevitable... I asked my doc, cuz i was really worried too, and she told me its mostly one of those wives tales. She said yes, it can restrict blood flow thru that artery, but the probability of this happing is slim to none, and there hasnt even been enough cases to make this a real concern for pregnant women.
Anyway, I hope you find some comfort in this message... thats why we are all on this site, to support and help eachother out!

the scroggins - Thursday, 12 Mar
i can;'t say i know how you feel cuz im a HORMONAL mess and mikey is here with me. :( so i really feel for you girl. it breaks my heart t hat you and cyndi's hubbys are away. yall are soliders yallselves!!!

ppl can be so damn rude when they ask you when youre due and they make faces or have a weird expression on their face! the other night a lady asked how many more weeks and i said 3 and she goes look like you may explode here at the restaurant. WELL THANK YOU FOR CALLIN ME A HUGE ASS WHALE FUCKER. :) lol. but ya it is totally worth it. you will be at the end before you know. it. be strong for aiden and your man. :) everyone is here for you.

<3 jennifer && baby mikayla loves you,.