23-3-2009 - First few problems and dr\'s report on what to expect

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Hey, y'all from Texas. So... I have had 3 uterus contractions besides all the stretching since my last dr's appt, 2 of which were in the last week. I also noticed that if the baby was overactive or I was *intimate* it would make me contract too. I also had some pain during urination which was worrying me since I only have 1 kidney on top of the dented uterus thing. So I toughed it out this weekend and went to my dr today. He said that the urinalyis was negative and that my cervix was unchanged. He also said that my uterus is now beginning to see the effects of it's irritability, that movement will cause it to contract and these contractions will get bigger as the baby grows. He advised me to continue to come in for a pelvic exam for every incidence of contractions because right now it's not pushing the baby out but it will eventually try to do that.

I asked him about fFP testing and he thought it would be obsolete since we have a definitive diagnosis of my cause of preterm labor. That things can change so quickly with me that something that scales normal women with a timeline would have an inaccurate timeline for me.

Ok, now for the fun part... all of the decisions about me going into preterm labor. I am going to a consultation with a MFM ob/gyn (aka high risk dr, perinatologist, maternal fetal medicine) before 24 weeks at Schumpert in LA because they have specialists and a NICU to get into their system and register. But pretty much after 24 weeks, my ob is just going to be there for regular and as needed pelvic exams and will work with the MFM and let him make all the decisions and deliver the baby. My ob seems to feel like this is going to end up like my other pregnancy indefinitely.

In light of all this, I am trying to shake off fear and gain peace and strength for whatever lies ahead. I don't care what they do to me, they can check my pelvis everyday for all I care, I just don't want to see my child fighting to live, that's the thing I'm trying to stress to God that I can't handle. I hope this blog helps someone who might be going through the same things or has them to come.

Some verses that are helping me out: "I [and my baby] shall not die but live and declare the works of the Lord" "Behold... the children the Lord has given to me" "There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out all fear; because fear hath torment" "what do you imagine against the Lord? affliction shall not rise up the second time. He will make an utter end of affliction" "The glory of this latter house shall exceed that of the former"