05-11-2008 - Stressed.............

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Ok, so my life is what I like to call a "hot mess". My husband is still deployed and when he hit his first port visit he got into trouble. Serious trouble, its a long, long story and one that Ive over told Im sick if even hearing it. He is being treated unfairly by the Navy and getting in trouble for defending his own life (he didnt hurt anyone) so our main concern is now he could get discharged from the Navy. He is supposed to go to Capt Mast soon and learn his fate. If he gets discharged he wont have a job, I wont have insurance and we will have bills to pay that we wont be able to afford. All of course while Im pregnant. The only bright side about this is that he will be able to come home to me. Depending on the type of discharge he might get he could have problems getting a job. Im worried sick about our situation and his well being. He gets harassed EVERYDAY on his ship and he is getting more and more depressed, it worries me. Im trying to enjoy this pregnancy and try not to stress too much about it so I dont harm my baby but its hard when I dont even know how we will afford our new baby. He feels he let me and baby down when he didnt. Its now a waiting game...I just hope my baby is healthy. I go for my 20 week scan wednesday, Nov. 11th and if one thing can go right for us Id want it to be a healthy baby. Did I mention that Im hormonal and easily aggatated! I nanny for a 2yr old and 4yr old boys and they try my patience everyday!! Just need some prayer and some support! I have no family here where I live and one friend, not exagerating! I dont know what to do or turn too...I need prayer...