06-5-2008 - NAKED

My mood while writing this blog: stalled

( I had to add this as an edit...if you dont choose a smiley it just gives you one-they actually don't have one that expresses how I feel, so I didn't choose)-not important but what the hell

I am confused.

I am hurt.

I am happy .

Then sad.

I say I understand, but I'm not sure I really do.

I say things will work out for us, but what if they don't?

I tell you I am doing fine.

But only after I have awakened from an 8 hr nap

My body is healing. But my heart will take some time.

Everybody else is enjoying their children.

I am glad and they are blessed.

My three are in heaven, not here with me.

In my darker hours I am angry.

I recieved a message to seek Jesus.

Am I doing it wrong?

The best way to describe my feeling is,

Naked, as though I have been stripped of something,

but not of clothing, every layer removed more painful than the last

and just when healing begins, here comes life to pull off more.

If you've never been down this path, count your blessings.

If I could tell everybody how it is to save someone else from having to go through it, I would be delighted.

Forgive my mumble jumble...gotta get it out somehow