26-6-2008 - Copy of the LONG letter that Roo~Roo sent in Chat room

My mood while writing this blog: Sad

The last few days have been tough and I want to share them because I truly believe that sometimes the Lord allows us to go through things that are tough so that we can see how mighty HE really is, and so that others may be touched. Some people might say HOW can others be TOUCHED when a tragedy occurs?? Well when you think about it people are the most caring when something bad happens. They reach out to people and are slow to get agitated, they put differences aside, and they are the most vulnerable. They are most ABLE to be touched by the Lord. That’s why I think the Lord allows tough things to occur in our lives. Not that he MAKES bad things happen, but He allows us to go through trials so we can learn more about Him and how to rely and lean on Him and so others can be touched in the process. This weekend I was in a car accident and I lost the baby I was carrying. I was upset of course, but not devastated. This bothered me. I could remember TV shows when women had miscarriages and how their devastation was SO severe that it led to depression etc etc. I thought, gosh am I cold? Am I insensitive? I revisited my thought process while all this was going on and I kept telling myself (without even realizing it until after the fact) Gods will WILL be done. If I'm supposed to have this baby then I will, if not then I won’t. I wasn’t ever truly worried. Sure there was a time when reality set in and the tears came, but I was never devastated. The bible says that if we rely on the Lord He will give us a peace that surpasses all understanding. That’s what I have. I know Jesus is bigger than all of this. He knew this was going to happen even before I was born. He has had ALL this time (not that He needs it) to plan on comforting me if I would let Him. And I did. And He did.