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05-5-2008 - My story..

My mood while writing this blog: tired

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My story. (Before bubs!)

My name is Rebecca, and i am 22 years old. Me and my ex partner Kenneth were trying to fall pregnant for over a year and a half. For over 6 years i have been in and out of hospital. Doctors told me i would never fall pregnant. I was told i had Ovarian cysts (PCOS), Endometriosis and Abnormal Cervical Cells (Potential Cervical Cancer). My life was full of ups and downs, visits in and out of emergency wards, Endo appointments, ultrasounds and operations and even 101 different medications to help the pain and ease the burden that affected my life in a serious way. One doctor even told me that the only way i could get rid of the pain was to have a hysterectomy!! I had difficulty holding a steady job and hopes and dreams i had for the future ended dramatically when i woke up in the morning surrounded by blood that would continue for months and being taken to emergency wards in agony. Many doctors told me that i would hit early menopause at 30 and my chances of concieving were very slim at 25 and beyond unless i have a baby. I never thought in my wildest dreams i could possibly create a baby inside of me.

Within the hard bumps and hurdles i had to face, i met kenneth. He was very supportive and even though he did not understand to the fullest what i was going through, he tried his best to be there to love me and support me, be there holding my hand and keeping up my strength to believe that everything was going to be okay. He chased me for 3 years, and when he finally got me, he proposed within 6 months, telling me that i was the one person he wanted to spend the rest of his life with. Since then i would never have thought i could have met a man who was so special and supportive who gives as much as he can to be there. Unfortunately things haven't worked out for the best between us.

In may Last year i fell pregnant, I was unknown to it, as i was enjoying a part of my life that was filled with late nights, alcohol and partying. I did not find out till i had lower abdominal pains, went to my local GP and he organised an Ultrasound. On the screen in front of me was a gestastional sac of 7 weeks. My heart skipped beats, the doctor couldn't find a heartbeat. A week later i lost the baby. Since then i have felt guilt and pain, but i know that she/he is in a better place and i will see him/her again one day.

Since then i didn't stop trying, i wanted to have a baby. My life was consumed by this belief that this could happen to me, After everything those doctors told me, i didn't want to believe it. Anything is possible. So for a good year we tried, with high hopes and dissapointment, i eventually went in for my last operation and almost 3 months after that, i fell pregnant on what i believe was August 16th 2007, 6 days after my birthday.

I didn't find out till i was late for a period, even though my periods have always been irregular, I thought i should try and see what happens..

Kenneth and i went to the pharmarcy on 15th of September 2007. We bought a cheap Test, because i didn't think that i was pregnant. There was 2 in the pack. We went back home, as i live with my mum at the moment, i told her, and went to do the test. Straight away, 2 lines came up within 30 seconds, tears filled my eyes, i didn't believe it. I called my mum and she looked at it - said 'now don't get your hopes up, do another test in the morning and see what it says'. So i waited till the next morning, and funnilly enough, 2 blue lines staring at me.. I'm pregnant! I went to the GP who confirmed it with me and the dream i never thought could come true did. I told Kenneth, and he started crying, the shock wore in, this was something he didn't realise he wasn't ready for..

As now i say to people, never give up anything is possible! If it could happen to me, it can happen to anyone!

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