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| 13-8-2009 - Down but not out |  My mood while writing this blog:Ok |
Hi to all of you ladies out there in IAP land. I have missed you, although I have peeked in at the list of messages on my home page from time to time, just to check on the BFPs and those having their babies.
I just wrote this big long rambling boo-hoo blog, because my head has been in a really bad place. But then I read it and deleted it. Enough is enough! The short version is that I'm struggling at my job, my DH hurt himself and had to have surgery and is going through painful recovery and will be out of work until September, I'm bitter about having no baby in my life yet, and I'm on CD 51 and still no sign of ovulation. Phew!
I really don't like this bitter, unmotivated, stressed out person I have become lately, and I'm quite sure my long cycle has to at least be related to this. I am the only one that can snap myself out of this, though, so this will be the end of my whining here.
I'm sorry I haven't kept up with all of you or responded or shared your joys. I do think about all of you though. I thought checking in on this site was making me obsessed, but things have just gotten worse since I stopped checking in here, so I think I will try to carve out some time on the weekends to stop by and chat about baby things, maybe I will find hope again.
I think I should probably also go visit my OB doc. I'm overdue for my yearly exam and maybe they will want to do some other tests or have some suggestions for me to deal with these whacky cycles.
I wish you all the best and I hope to have some kind of good news in my next blog. Take care. XOXO
8 Comments on Down but not out
res - Monday, 17 Aug
So sorry to hear ou're feeling down. Hang in there, and never give up hope.
littlesunshine - Saturday, 15 Aug
Im sorry you are feeling so down and you dont need to apologise for not being on here much I was the same before I fell pregnant. I really hope you cycles get shorter soon and back on track so you can get your BFP. Hope to see you on here more when you feel up to it.
butterfly-angel - Friday, 14 Aug
Becky - it sucks to be down - its not an easy road. Take al the time you need - and please - think of yourself and take some time for you. Last month my cycle was 57 days - and being someone who used to be sooo irregular - I know how hard the waiting game is....thinking of you and sending you a big hug xxx
skittles0607 - Friday, 14 Aug
Im sorry that you are feeling so down.. Stay positive about everything.. You should go see your OB maybe they can shed some light on some new things.. Good luck to you and your DH!! Baby dust coming your way..
mamagarces - Thursday, 13 Aug
i'm sorry that you have been feeling down. i think we all have been there more often than we care to... i think seeing your dr would be a good thing to do.i'm sure the stresses in your life are a definite contributor to your long cycle as well... i pray that you find some happiness, and go easy on yourself...and when you allow yourself to relax, you are more likely to have a normal cycle and conceive.
Abigails Mommy - Thursday, 13 Aug
Becky I did the same thing just the other day. I was down in the dumps about everything and deleted the post as evidenced on your page probably :-)I'm so sorry you're down. When everything is happening at once and it's not all positive it's hard to be positive! We're allowed a pity party sometimes.HUGS we've missed you and hope to see you around more.
firstmommy08 - Thursday, 13 Aug
Becky... hang in there girlie. I know EXACTLY where you are coming from. My DH has been laid off since Feb. I'm stressed about finances and I'm TTC!! What am I thinking, right? I mus be crazy... no, I'm just in love with the idea of having a little baby to hold that's my own. Hang in there girlie... Anytime you need to chat, I'm here for you.
sheework - Thursday, 13 Aug
Beck I am sorry to hear your down. Hate to say I have been there before and know it's a daily struggle to maintain. The only thing I tried to do was think about what I did have. I have a job when most are getting laid off. I have a b/f when some people search for true love... ect. I know those things can get overshadowed during it all. I am still struggling with my bitterness and have accepted it maybe with me until I someday have a baby possibly after. Try and find time to do something you enjoy. For me it was gardening, I was amazed at how much it helped me. (((HUGS)))
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23-6-2009 - I\'m out for this month
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22-4-2009 - I have no clue what is going on
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20-1-2009 - Taking a break, for now
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27-11-2008 - Happy Thanksgiving
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29-7-2008 - Milestones are Hard
05-7-2008 - The Story of little Damien
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