23-12-2009 - A Failed Attempt

My mood while writing this blog: bruised

I am now really bruised around my stomach. I am also pretty devastated that I won't be having the natural birth I desired. Maybe I took things for granted too much. This whole time I've been celebrating that I'm 25, having a totally healthy pregnancy thus far and feeling very lucky and blessed. I survived 4 weeks in China that was not easy on the digestive system, planning and getting married, and working throughout the whole pregnancy. Today is my first day of mat. leave too, yay for that! But of course life puts obstacles in our paths and this happened to come in the form of a breech and stubborn baby.

It's been a rough week. Got in a fight with the husband earlier this for him smoking too much pot and watching porn recently. So he gets to have all the fun while I chug along, hugely pregnant, just a massive object. He felt really bad for being irresponsible and I felt really bad for snapping. It was a build-up of a lot of hormones and nerves. We were better, but then this happened - the baby is breech and is really not likely to turn in the next week.

And I say week because I have a C-section scheduled for a week from today, 12/30/09. Baby's birthday in one week. That at least puts a smile on my face.