24-10-2009 - Separated

My mood while writing this blog: annoyed, suprisingly not sad

So, Some of you may have seen a poll I posted recently....I was trying to convince my husband to get another car because I'm sick of Raelyn missing all her appointments, or not knowing until half an hour before if she can even make it. And if my husband didn't agree to it I was thinking about just going in and doing it anyways and tell him tough shit.

Well. I found one online that I LOVE. He says he likes it too so we go into the dealership to look at it. We test drive it, my husband said he likes it a lot and loves the way the engine is set up. So we go inside, fill out all the paperwork, fill out a credit app, give them all our info and what not, he tells us based off my credit the payments would probably be around $300 at most, or under....then in the middle of it all my husband is like "I don't really want to do this, lets go" and me and the salesman look at each other like "WTF?!". So the manager comes in....and the sales guy is like "his wife really wants this, so is it okay if I put a sold sign on it til they work things out?" and the manager is like "yeah...let us know monday whats up...take the car over the weekend if you want". We get outside and my husband says he doesn't want to buy it. YEAH....I know right? So he calls up Mommy and Daddy as usual and asks their opinion on it all and they tell him it's stupid to finance though a dealership, and he can only buy it with a car loan through their bank, and their bank only does up to $2000 for car loans....which is a load of crap. So he tells me "sorry...maybe next year". AND last night I asked him to take care of that ex-girlfriend situation (a ex is stalking him) and he said he doesn't want to anymore because if he messages her and tells her to leave us alone she'll just message him even more and he doesn't want to file charges so he's just going to keep ignoring her.

So I'm done. I don't deserve to be treated like a 6 year old...who gets no say or opinion in anything, and I'm sick of him running to his parents every time he questions something and doing exactly as they say because they are PSYHCO womanizing freaks that are stuck in the 1950s. I called my parents divorce lawyer who has also become a family friend, and asked him if he could mail me some paperwork or info when he gets back to work Monday and he is, so next week Im going to start filling all of that out. In the military you have to be legally separated for one year before you can file for divorce, so I guess Im going to be sitting around doing nothing for a year. Idk how this is going to work out since I have no job, no money, no place to live and now no car. Idk...Im not even sad really, more frustrated that Im so far away from home and completly screwed because I don't have a job or anything and can't afford day care. Before when I thought I was done with all of this it would make me really sad and depressed but now I'm just relieved.