02-8-2008 - PREGNANCY NOTES :)

My mood while writing this blog: SUPER HAPPY

THIS IS WHAT WAS ON MY PROFILE THE ENTIRE TIME I WAS PREGNANT... HOPE YOU ENJOY READING MY RAMBLINGS :)

My name is Brittany... this is my first pregnancy and we are so excited. Right now I'm about 11 weeks pregnant and I'm due on July 23, 2008. I'm excited to find out what it is and cant wait for that doctor's appointment. I'm excited and nervous about the pregnancy... its my first like i said and I'm a pretty healthy person... no drinking or smoking so thats good but always... still nervous (mommy instincts i gues) I cannot wait t become a MOMMY!!!!!!

My strory continues to unravel....

Today is the third day of me being without my partner Stephen, he has decided to move back to his hometown (about 2 hours from where I live). I dont like his decision and i think that it was the best choice for him but he wants to make this work. Down here, living at home with my parents it was stressful and i have to admit it has been less stressful with him being back home but i miss him so much. I miss him rubbing my belly and kissing his little girl. I can officially say now that i am in love with two people, my daughter and my boyfriend. He has chosen that path right now and I can do nothing but be patient and care for me and my daughter. I only have about six weeks left and I feel more empowered than ever! She is my blessing and my little angel and i just cannot wait to meet her. Her father is being supportive still and will be there for the birth of his daughter. I am a FIRM believer in this saying... "A woman becomes a mother when she becomes pregnant, a man becomes a father when the child is born." Only because, no matter how much they say that they understand, they dont. They dont know how stressfull it is to be us, they dont understand the daily aches and pains and they definitely dont know what it feels like to get the shit kicked out of you from the inside all day long. And believe me, I have a VERY active little girl.... I feel like im going to give birth to an acrobat! All in all, at this point patience is the key and in the end, I am going to do what is best for my daughter and I, no matter what choices I have to make. She is my life, my world, my everything and i cannot wait to see her and be able to hold, cuddle and kiss my little girl.... Wish me luck girls as I take this transition day by day :) More today after my Dr. Appt.

xoxo Britt

UPDATE 6.11.08

Being in the hospital sucks! Yesterday at like 9:00 am i got sudden stabbing pains in my chest and my stomach. of course i freaked and called the dr....by 11:30 i was in the office being admitted to the hospital.... they think its gal stones (or however you spell it) so needless to say, yesterday was not my day.... the hospital not being the only problems i had.... family is just going nuts right now. mom nad bf cant be in the same room together and its stupid. she wouldnt even come see me last night because he was here. STUPID! So about 4:30 yesterday afternoon they took me down to US and did a scan of baby and my abdomen.... got to see baby girls face... chubby cheeks! And just to our luck, there was no radiologist on call last night so we dont have the results back.... good thing is, they dont think that it is placenta abruption or anything. Which is good. But gal stones i ont want either. I'm just hapy that baby is ok. i guess i had a few smal contractions yesterday but i didnt feel a thing..... Here's to hoping that i get out of this place today... i hate playing the waiting game.... its not fun!

January 2, 2008

So things have been getting better lately... morning sickness has pretty much subsided and I FINALLY have my appetite back! Thank goodness! For a while there all i wanted was Sierra Mist because it kept me from throwing everything up. Soo Jan. 23rd is my first visit to the doctor... by then I'll be 14 weeks but i had to wait for my insurace to kick in and that wasnt until yesterday and I called about 3 weeks ago and they could only take me on that day or later so i figure i'll go then. although the doctor's office doesnt know im pregnant.... because if it was on record that i was pregnant and went to the doctor before my insurance kicked in.... insurance wouldnt cover any bit of the birth. Which i cant afford... i mean come on I'm 19 years old and still live with my parents! Thank god we're moving in exactly 1 month! Bigger place so Stephen, the baby (hoping its a girl) and I can stay until after the baby is born so my mom can help me out a little bit with the little rascall.

So here is some of my story and why i hold this pregnancy and this baby so near and dear to my heart.... my cousin who was like my sister battled breast cancer brought on by pregnancy for a year and a half.... my family got the news that she was pretty much terminal and wouldnt make it through the holidays on November 16, 2007 and i called my mom the next day and told her that i was pregnant..... My family and I took it as.... one passes and another is born. Shortly after that phone call and a few others.... my beautiful cousin... Sylvia passed away on December 7, 2007. The last time i saw her alive was on Thanksgiving and her last words to me that she ever said as she was laying on the couch were "Hey Britt! Happy Thanksgiving! Congrats!" and then she couldnt talk any more because she was crying. So in honor of her and her short but beautiful life.... if the baby is a girl her name is going to be Hailee Sylvia. Syvlia left behoind two beautiful baby girls and one amazing husband (Zack).... the girls are Taleah (just turned 4 on 12-22) and little Jazzmyne (1 1/2) these girls are my night and day and we have been taking care of them since Taleah was just 2 weeks old so they basically feel like mine and my moms kids. And its sad to see them suffer and ask so many questions that we dont even know the answer to. But this baby is keeping me strong and i do believe that Sylvia is with me every day making sure that everything goes ok and that i have a happy and healthy child. I miss her more than life itself but in her short 23 years... she touched so many people and it was her turn to touch Heaven and touch God the way she touched our family. Sylvia's memory means more to me than anything and I am going to do anything in my power to keep her alive in spirit and NEVER let her be forgotten. Spooky things all line up with this pregnancyand it freaks me out I'm not much for superstision but this is freaky... on myspace i have a picture of my little sister and Sylvia... actually their last picture together on Holloween and at exactly 7:23 pm (the time that she passed) my little sister left a comment on that picture that said "I love that girl!" Spooky right??? it gets even better.... my due date is 7-23... so i look at this as sylvia's way of saying "I'm right here and I'm not going anywhere." We all miss her and it was an extremely emotional holiday season with a peiec of the family missing but we made the best of it and of course we cried but we were all strong for her baby girls and gave them the best Christmas they have ever had! So thats enough for tonight.... It's making me cry.... more within the next couple of days :]

Hailee Renee Sylvia

January 10, 2008

Wow wow wow! I felt the baby move for the first time this past week and wasnt sure what it was a first... so i let it go until i felt it again like twenty minutes later and sak my mom about the feeling and whatnot. And sure enough its been happening ever since mostly at night when i lay down for bed and in the morning once i get to work (lol) and sit down at my desk. January 23rd! I cannot wait hopefully my ultrasound wont be too long after that and hopefully i'll be able to find out what it is sometime soon hopefully before my birthday in a month. Anyway... I'm gonne get going just wanted to share the important news!!!!!!!

January 31, 2008

WOW! So... today was my first ultrasound and everything and i have to say that i cried like a baby when i first saw the baby. it was all so real finally and to see the little heart beating like crazy made me feel like a real mom. Well they couldnt tell for sure but when they put the little machine to show between the legs there was nothing there so they think its a girl. i will know for sure on 2/29/08 @ my next appointment. Its so exciting! So far everything is great... they dont see anything wrong with her.... she's got all of her toes and fingers.... a nice strong heart beat and she moves A LOT. it was hard for the nurse to get a good shot of her brain because she kept moving her head back and forth kind of saying HAHA. It was great though we finally got to see her brain and skull and spine and her ribs and everything and the doctor said that everything was in the right places and she was just the right size for her age... I was right about my due date... July 23rd,.... smack dab in the middle of summer but thats ok.... :) The one thing they did say was that she is a very active baby... she was wide awake for the ultrasound and was moving all over the place.... it was really funny when the doctor found her heart beat for the second time before my exam...the baby was tucked behind my pubic bone but you could faintly hear her little heart racing... then she got closer and closer and then we heard this thump.... she kicked the little monitor thing... dont thionk she liked it pushing down on her haha. but yea i got to hear her heartbeat and see her for the first time today. Daddy is more excited than ever and my mom aka "Nanny" cried like a baby. :) And did i mention that im beyond excited?!?!?!?!?!?

March 10, 2008

Soooo... short update here.... ITS A GIRL! for sure! Went to my u/s on 2/29/08. Baby is healthy and a whopping 10 ounces :) Saw the Dr. after the u/s and he basically said.. "Everything looks awesome all tests are fine,,, she's beautiful.... have any questions?" and that was it. My next appt is on 3/28/08 & I'll be about 6 months pregnant then. I'm getting so excited! People are starting to bring me little pink things and its hard to believe that in 4 short months I'll be holding little Hailee in my arms at last! :) Well thats enough of an update for now... Im exhausted and not to mention have a horrible cough. Nighty Night.

x.o.x.o.

Britt

Hailee Bug is almost here!

UPDATE 5.14.08

Hey there people! Well, I am officially 30 weeks pregnant. Only 10 weeks to go and I'll be able to have my little girl with me at last. Everything is getting stressful.... getting everything ready and making sure that we have everything we need for her. Appointments are every other week instead of once a month. The appointment before last they checked for diabetes and said that no news was good news so i guess thats good seeing as i havent heard anything.... and at that appointment, she was still turned upright... but thankfully, at my last appointment she had flipped and it in the right spot now. Its amazing how she already is showing her little personality... she is so cute... sticks out her little elbows and moves them around and loves to knock when you poke at my belly. Stephen poked at my belly the other night and she poked right back in the same spot like it was a little game. Being pregnant and it almost being summer and living in Florida it is hotter than HELL! But thankfully we have a pool that i can lounge around in on the weekends. But anyway everything is good here with momma and baby....adn we're just counting down the days :) Wish everyone well and hope that their prengnancies are going great!

She hold my heart already :)

UPDATE 5/23/08

So I have another appointment today... seeing if i gained anymore weight and checking my size and the heart beat like normal. Tuesday was kind of scary.... belly started to tighten up while i was walking so i had to stop then i started getting really dizzy. Called the dr and got an appoitment but when i went in, they ran all these little tests and whatnot and nothing came back abnormal. Nurse said that i might have been outdoing it and to make sure i get enough water and rest. Well.. did that and havent had those feelings since. Taking my cousin's daughters to Sea World tomorrow for the day. All piling up in the car at about 7 am and heading to Orlando... tis gonna be fun! more later

x0x0

Brittany

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