12-4-2012 - BFP after giving birth 5 months ago

My mood while writing this blog: Nervous

So...................I'm pregnant!

Here i am, a mother of two boys ages 2 and 5 months and i'm PREGNANT.......AGAIN. I'm so nervous and scared this time around though. Knowing my body hasn't fully healed from my c-section in November and my youngest is only 5 months, i know it will be a long hard road ahead of me. Being a single mother is just making it all the more terrifing. Their father has said that he will step up and help me and the kids but i'll believe that when i see it. He's a good person but he's in a bad situation right now. All i can do is rely on myself and make plans for the future without relying on anyone else.

I'm reluctant to tell my parents because i know they will be so disappointed in me. They are religious and don't believe in having children out of wedlock so it just makes it that much worse that it's happend so soon afetr giving birth. Thankfully they spend half of the year in Canada and my father will be leaving on the 22nd of this month. My mother leaves soon after but i plan on telling her before i go beause she is a lot more simpathetic to my situation. My father on the other hand is abusive verbally to me about these matters. I honestly just can't handle that right now. Everyone is so disappointed that i allowed this to happen but i tried to prevent it as much as i could, the morning after pill just doesn't seem to work for me (got preggo with my 2nd after the pill failed) I considered an abortion this time around for about a day but decided that i could never go through with it no matter how hard my life will be now.

Has anyone else had a csection and fallen pregnant so soon after?