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| 24-7-2009 - Seperating and moving out |
My mood while writing this blog: stressed |
Well, where do I begin?
Kenny and I have not been getting along. We fight in front of our son almost everyday. He has become very jealous and controlling and everything I do is wrong. He needs help with anger managment.
So, I did what I thought would be best for my son. I got us an apartment. I know it will be hard going to school full time, work, and taking care of my child but I know I can do it.
I am actually excited to get our own place and now have to worry about yelling back and forth with someone. I have most of my things moved in, but I still have stuff I need to get.
Am I scared, yes! I am 24 years old and will graduate college this year but I am worried about all the stress I will have. I am used to taking care of Carson on my own anyway. I do most of the work.
I just hope I am making the right desicion for him and I.
Does anyone have any thoughts? Encouragement?
11 Comments on Seperating and moving outAverysmommie -
Wednesday, 29 Jul Good luck sweetie! I couldn't imagine all you've been through...Your doing the best thing for you & carson. Your his momma and you know what is the best thing. Take care, keep us posted. babyborders -
Tuesday, 28 Jul Hey there. I'm so sorry girl. I know you are strong and that you can do it, by I know it must still be hard.
I believe that Momma truly knows best, and your the Momma, so you do what you gotta do! Im so proud of you of you for taking charge and being strong enough to take it all on by yourself. You really can do it. And it will be so worth it to see him grow up and know that you did everything you could do to make his little life as happy as it could be. :) Rhonda Lynn -
Monday, 27 Jul First of all I want to tell you I am sorry. I know your heart is broken and this was not what you wanted to happen. When you are with someone, and especially when you have a child with them, you do not want it to end......
That being said I think you have made a wise decision. Yes it will be hard, I can vouch for that. But it is much better to leave a situation that has become what it has than stay. Carson will be better off for it. I hope Kenny will still play an active role in Carson's life. And I hope that eventually you will have some type of peaceful coexhistance with Kenny. The hard part comes when you have to establish child support and so on.. ( another thing I know all too well) I certainly hope you will have an easier time than I have...
I am here as your friend if you ever need someone to talk to. I understand how hard this all will be for you. But I also have found you to be a very strong person. You are a MOM!!! You will do what you have to in order to make life the best it can be for Carson. It may seem bleak now but it WILL get better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! andriette and christians mummy liz -
Saturday, 25 Jul Oh hunni,im so very sorry to hear about this.Youre doing the right thing and i admire you alot.Yeah its gonna be hard but i know just by listening to u that u will do it with no problems.If u need anything we are here.Are u on facebook? ulala86 -
Friday, 24 Jul You and Carson deserve to be treated good. he doesnt need to grow up watching his mommy and daddy fight so u have made a very wise decision. i bet it was harder then ever for you but am very glad for you for being such a string women and stepping for for what is good for your son. and you can do it all. your a mom now and you will just look at carson and his face will make you want to do more and all that you can. best wishes and remember we are here for you! :) tribegirl11 -
Friday, 24 Jul wellll--good for you being a strong woman. You and Carson deserve to be treated with love and respect. I commend you for doing the right thing--I can't imagine how hard it must be. You're probably doing okay now b/c you're still functioning off of adrenaline, excitement, and anger. Keep strong though and don't give in when he comes back to you. It will be hard--like i said, I can't even imagin. Good luck--i"m here if you ever need to talk! happyforest -
Friday, 24 Jul way to go!!! being strong for yourself and your son! and finishing school is good too, i still have 2 years left and will have to do really good to even finish in that amount of time and im not even on my own....good luck! kamariasmommy08 -
Friday, 24 Jul Girl you are doing the right thing. Us women have to be strong not only for ourselves but for our children. Your son should have to sit and watch his dad be an asshole...it will only make him out to be one when he gets older. I have faith in you and I know you can do it. There are alot of single moms out there and I may be on my to being one of them. Keep doing what you are doing and focus on you and your son. achance2dream -
Friday, 24 Jul I am not sure of your entire situation but from what you wrote it seems like we are going through the same thing. I moved out about 2 months ago and although I love David so very much I wasn't going to wait around until he decided to grow up and be both a dad and a "husband." I will tell you right now it will be SOOO hard but you will be able to do it. Maybe Kenny will realize what he is missing out on and work on himself to get you guys back and if not life goes on. Life really is too short to be unhappy, I tell people “life happens” and I am sure it will be hard to leave him and hard in general to be without him but you need to do what is best for both your son and YOU!!
Honestly I don’t think I have ever been so tired in my life the last 2 months but I am happy and that is what counts. My little guy is what I am focusing on and even with the long days and short nights he always makes the tears vanish and the despair wash away because he is my everything, he is what makes my world turn.
Moving out either way is probably the best thing. Like I said maybe he will realize what he has lost or maybe not but at least you will find out. You can do it I promise, Carson will help you =)
Let me know if you want to chat more or if you need anything.
cutiedoll676 -
Friday, 24 Jul you did what you felt was right to protect your baby :) GO MAMA! may god bless you with all the strength you need to succeed in life :) jenadamandbaby -
Friday, 24 Jul so sorry to hear you are going through some hard times. I hope everything works out for you. there was a period of time where my husband and i were yelling and arguing in front of Shayla and she would start crying. So we both agreed that we CAN NOT do that anymore. Our arguing has gotten a lot better thankfully, but if it didn't, I would be doing the same thing as you! good luck with everything! take care!