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05-6-2009 - Tired

My mood while writing this blog:
angry/hurt/sad/ who knows anymore

I know I haven't led a perfect life, but I would love to know what I have done so horribly to have to continue in this vicious cyle of bologna. This last week has been a living hell. As if things aren't bad enough and stressful enough at work and raising a 6 year old alone to boot it just keeps getting better.

My mom was diagnosed in January with cirrosis (sp)? of the live and Hep C. Since then she has gone into complete liver failure. Her husband doesn't tell the truth to the family about anything and the last week my mom has been pretty unresponsive. She's been telling me different things for a month now and I really feel like her husband is up to no good. My mom gave her nurse permission to release her information to me even though her husband had previously had it blocked where no one could find out anything. He's such a douche bag. So, I've been dealing with that all week which is more than enough. She's in Texas and I'm in Virginia and I just feel like my hands are tied and I feel so helpless.

The sperm donor and I have been talking don't ask me why. I of course had no trust in him. So last night I drove to Annapolis because he wasn't responding to texts or phone calls. I of course caught him with another woman go figure. I embarassed the hell out of him though YAY me!!! and I got the paternity papers signed!!

I just wish that for once my life could be peaceful and quiet without stress. My OBGYN actually told me she wanted me to go see a psychiatrist because of everything I'm dealing with so now I'm CRAZY.

8 Comments on Tired

lila2cute:-) - Monday, 15 Jun
I am sorry it has taken me so long to respond, my computer broke so I havent been on in forever! Well, its always good to talk to someone and feel like you have some good advice coming from someone who is mutual in this whold ordeal. Good for you, make his ass sign them papers! He is a jerk!!! I hope you are feeling better this week :-)

2ndlibrababy - Friday, 5 Jun
I am so sorry this is all hitting you at once, God doesnt give us more than we can handle and what doesnt kill us only makes us stronger..Those two I live by, mostly because I have to. but sweetie you are soooo not crazy lol! You just need to find some peace for you and the baby...Therapy will help with that. And remember, God cant open another door for you until you close this one. we are all here for you hun, did you tell you doc that you already belong to preggers group therapy.. LOL take time to smile and relax. I know its easier said than done. :o)

iey - Friday, 5 Jun
You're not crazy!! Your life...yes. You...no. Sometimes, it just helps to have someone to vent to :)

I am so sorry to hear about your mum!! I have no idea what I could do from CA...but let me know if I can help!

I'm so glad you embarrassed the jerk! I hope whoever he was with takes the clue and drops him! At least you got done what needed to be done!

Take care of you! * hugs *

saawmummy (dueoct8) - Friday, 5 Jun
I hope you mother is OK. You certainly do have a lot to deal with. Try and take care of yourself as well.

bonitababy01 - Friday, 5 Jun
Im very sorry to hear about you mother. maybe she hid the truth so that you wouldnt be worried--but again, i guess thats being alittle selfish on her part. you have the right to know whats going on. yous live so far apart thats gotta be hard--you can still give her support by, being phone buddies--keep in touch with her on a daily basis--there are LOTS of meds she can or will be taking for her condition--dont let her hubby push you away. --she needs you now just as you need her now also.-- your not crazy babygirl--maybe a counselor isnt such a bad idea--someone who will listen and not judge you. as far as that man,---maybe you should tell his wife about whats going on---lol--thats will fix his goat!!! lol. take care try not to stress. my prayers goes out to you and your mom. im hoping your next blog is a happy one.

preggomama - Friday, 5 Jun
no, not crazy just need someone to talk to who can in a positive way help you release some of this pain you are carrying around and help you so that you and baby dont suffer negative health issues from everything...a little counceling is needed for everyone in my opinion!!!

normalee - Friday, 5 Jun
i'M SORRY that you have so much to deal with. just once in awhile just step back and take a deep breath and try to relax alittle.

emilyz77 - Friday, 5 Jun
Awww. you are not crazy... just on complete overload. You are dealing with so much. Sorry about your mother. that must be so hard for you. And this guy.... get rid of him! I think he is the root of the issue! You'll find someone awesome once you get rid of him and have time to heal. this sounds so gross and ugly but i thought it was funny. I was in a bad relationshi for 9 years. One of my good friends would always ask, "Did you flush the turd yet?"... Sorry, but when I finally broke it off I called her and told her I flushed it and we had a good laugh....

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