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10-6-2009 - Pregnancy and Breastfeeding

My mood while writing this blog: Sad

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I feel so bad right now. I dont know who to talk to about this. I knew that most likely because Im pregnant that I would loose my milk supply. I have been in denial about it since I found out I was pregnant. Now Im 14 weeks and its a reality now that I have no choice but to supplement. For the last 2 months She does get a cup or 2 a day with formula. The only kind she likes is the soy based. But Now Im not even sure How much Milk Im producing. But I know its not enough. I was crying as I fed her earlier, I knew she was still hungry so I gave her a cup with Formula. She wont take a bottle. So if I do have to give her even More Formula, how do I even do it? Im just so sad about this. Its probably the hormones and everything. I mean I know I made it this far, and I wont be as mad at myself for this as I would if I gave up when it was hard. But I am mad at myself, I shouldnt have became pregnant so early. Im also scared I will get Post partum Depression because of this.

Alyssa is almost 8 months and does take solids twice a day. And boy does she eat. She is on the low end of the weight scale and barely gained anything from when I got pregnant to her 6 month appt. LESS THEN A POUND!
At that moment was when I realized I had to give her formula. Because even though I fed her every hour to 3 hours, it didnt matter my supply was decreasing.

And now I tried to pump an hour after feeding her, and after 10 minutes I got a few drops. It was thick and rich, but it made me sad.


Nothing I do Is increasing my supply. Even though I know nothing will. I have to much progesterone hormone.
Which is why I didnt take birth control pills or the depo shot. I was told the hormones would decrease my supply.

But I made it to this point. I never gave up. And Im seeing that today. I feel a lot better.
How do I tell my husband though? He just does not understand. Nobody but Alyssa and I know this.

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2 Comments on Pregnancy and Breastfeeding


mrskcich - Wednesday, 10 Jun
just tell him. You can't supply it...there is nothing you can do about it. It's not like you are depriving her because you just don't want to do it anymore!

To make the transition a little easier, know that Dr's recommend we start using the sippy cup more at this age. I hope to have my Livi off the bottle by a year old.

michelle5288 - Wednesday, 10 Jun
Aw sweety I'm sorry... I don't really have any advice for you cause I'm only preggo with my first but maybe talk to the dr about it? And I think if you explain exactly how your feeling about it to hubby he'll be understanding and be there for you... Good luck hun.