23-9-2009 - What the hell is going on?!

My mood while writing this blog: heart broken

I dont know if the realization of having another child finally hit my husband or what, but for about a month now things have been slowly heading down hill between us. I reached my breaking point this morning and told him as far as I am concerned until he gets his head out of his a** or I find another place to live we are technically just roommates.

It started when he went out and bought the new Madden (football) game. All of a sudden all of his time was consumed by playing his friends. I thought after a week or so the novelty would wear off.. boy was I wrong!

My days now go something like this:

1. Get up extra early to get myself and Sophia ready so I can get her to the sitter and get myself to work on time.. No help from hubby cuz he was up half the nite playing games/watching tv.

2. Work a full time job.

3. Pick my daughter up because I get out 30 minutes earlier then him & run any errands that need to be done.

4. Get home- make dinner- make sure everyone is fed- clean up after dinner.

5. Bath time (while he is laying on the couch with his feet up watching sports)

6. Put Sophia in my bed to watch Dora & Diego before she goes to sleep while I run around trying to straighten up the house and put laundry on. (still lying on the couch with his feet up, drinking soda/eating chips & then leaving everything on the table because he seems to think it will grow legs and put itself away!)

7. Get Sophia to sleep and collapse into bed.

8. Wake up to Justin bitching that I go to sleep early now.

He also seems to have forgotten how to pick up after himself. He walks in from work and whatever accumulated in his pockets thru out the days end up dumped on the counter/table/dresser, etc. His work clothes stay where ever he ends up taking them off. His work boots and sneakers are strewn across my living room and there are tools EVERY WHERE!

As if his sudden laziness isnt bad enuf, he seems to be turning into his father! Everytime Sophia goes near him he starts yelling at her for something & it breaks my heart! All she wants to do is spend time with him & all he wants is to be a hermit... the big jerk! He used to tell me about how horrible it was being around his dad growing up because all he did is scream at him and his brother & sister, but now he is doing the same thing. Then he has the nerve to get upset when she wont go near him and clings to me. Hello?

I feel so lost, I cant figure out what is going on. Things were never like this before...

I plan on taking Fia to my parents house tonite and we will be staying there. I am praying this will be the wake up call he needs..