30-6-2008 - Maybe I Shouldn't Have Had That Wine After All

My mood while writing this blog: Shocked

Well, I woke this morning with the same question rolling around in my head, "Should I test this morning or just forget about it." I had one more test left. So I said, what the hell, I'll pee on this last stick. To my disbelief, I got my BFP!!!!!!! I'm still in quite a bit of shock. The test is resting right here beside my laptop. I keep checking it as if the + sign is going to disappear. I am very excited and nervous at the same time. Here are some reasons for being nervous:

1. I miscarried back in February.

2. I will be 35 in September.

3. I went to a wedding this weekend, had family and friends over, and drank my fare share of wine and champagne.

Number three is the one that's getting to me more than the others. I feel so damn guilty. I really was convinced that I was not PG at all!! I've had no symptoms--no fatigue, no sore bb's, no nauseating feelings, no bitchiness, no frequent urination, no nothing! Now, I'm sure everything will be fine. I really don't think I've harmed whatever is going on inside of me, but nonetheless, I feel guilty.

On a brighter note, I am so freaking excited about having another baby!! Now I'm ready for time to speed up just a tad to get through those pivotal moments of pregnancy. Here we go!!!!!!!!!!