05-11-2009 - Awww :)

My mood while writing this blog: hungry

so i wake up this morning and there is a note on the desk in front of the computer for me, from hubby :P it reads...

Goodmorning baby, I LOVE YOU!!! sorry for being so cranky lately, it's the loss of sleep, it's driving me crazy! I love you so much and i don't mean to hurt you or treat you badly. You are the best woman a man could ever have or want. I'm so proud to have you as my wife! Hope you leep good and i will see you when i get home. Your loving man, DCS

AWWWW!!! lol i cried! we have been fighting alot lately but theres been alot of stress, he has been working everyday from 2am until 9am then again at 5pm until 7pm and he has not been sleeping well. As much as i would rather him be home in the day i want him to be sane more then anything haha hes been a little delirious lately if u ask me :) so yay! that made me happy! he's still not home from work and hes going to be late bcuz he lost the keys to the post office, men right? lol oh yeah for all those wondering we are not actually married yet, we might as well be tho! I dont care if we ever get married, its not going to change how much i love him, its just a peice of paper, but he on the other hand is the complete opposite! He wants to marry me so bad, we just cant afford to right now so we are waiting until im done school.

in other news, i feel really blah today, the benadryl is OMG soooo hard to take! i mean if u can have naps during the day, go for it but i have a 15 mo toddler to chase around and i almost fell asleep yesterday while sitting here with the window open blowing freezing cold air in my face! LOL thank goodness i dont have to take it for that long! but i imagine if i did i would build up some kind of tolerance, i would think i would have a tolerance already seeing as i take it for my hives. right now i feel like there is a ball of yuck sitting in my throat, ugh also having lots of other symptoms BUT soy does exaggerate ur PMS so im just goin to say its that for now! not getting my hopes up this time! i dont plan to spend a week in self pity if AF shows up, gotta stay positive and move on bcuz thats all u can do. its pretty bad when someone u havent talked to in a while says 'ur STILL TTC????' *sigh* yes, altho i technically havent been trying for that long compared to most women so if i get pregnant soon i will consider myself lucky.

Sav had her flu shots yesterday, and she is fine. She didnt turn green, she didnt have sprouts growing out of her head lol shes my normal happy girl :) we decided to go with the H1N1 bcuz it was the best choice for us. I couldnt live with myself if i didnt get her the vaccine and she got really sick. hubby and i didnt get ours however they are only vaccinating children under 5, pregnant women, healthcare workers and people of first nations. technically i could get mine bcuz i could be pregnant but im going to wait until that actually happens first :) let someone else who needs it have it for now. Sav also had her eye appointment the day before last and she lost it!!! she freaked out, its soo tough to see ur child like that but she doesnt understand why that strange man is poking her in the eyes lol she was fine once we left tho, same with the doctors office. she hates doctors.

well thats all the updates i can think of for now! check my blog "soy isoflavones experiment" for daily updates and my chart is there as well :) much love ladies!

Chasity xoxoxox