20-5-2009 - Just Waiting...

My mood while writing this blog: bored

Hey everyone! OK so I'm starting to get really nervous about my Dr. appt on Friday. Its werid becasue I'm not nervous about the baby or delivery yet, but I'm scared for my appt. Last time I went was a week ago today (wed) and I was at 4.5cm and ever since I've been walking and bouncing on the ball, had sex once --seeing that its really hard right now and very uncomfoable for me, probaly for him too as I can't really move!! :) and nothing else has happened, I've been having some contractions, they never amount to anything, and don't hurt. I guess just BH I don't know. Everytime I get them and they start to get regular, I get up and walk around or go do something and it all goes away and I feel great again. So oviously its not real labor. I have stoped working this week, and its nice but still its hard to get used to. The past 3 or 4 weeks I've been going MAD on the house, I've been cleaning like a Crazy Lady. Every wall and door in our house has been washed, my bathroom is the cleanest its ever been before, I vacume everyday, babies room is totally ready. Monday was the last day that I cleaned yesterday and the day before I haven't done S--- I just don't feel like doing anything. I don't konw if that means anything or not. I don't konw what do you guys think?? But on my appt on Friday I'm just wondering if I've dialated anymore, and if I have --like if i'm a 5 or 6 what will he do??? Is he going to keep me there?? Is he going to break my water??? How long can you walk around being that far 'open'??? Last week he said he touched the babies head?! I know thats why my hips and legs ache SOOO freakin bad. What do you guys think??? I don't care when the baby comes, as long as its on the babies time not on the Dr. scheudle. If he says that he wants to break my water, I'm ok with that, but I don't want him to say that they will put me on the piticon. I think that piticon is just more for ppl who have trouble dialating, well I don't have that problem I just need a little push. I don't know anyways I hope everyone else is feeling as content as I am. Its weird how I feel about labor and the baby coming....i'm just Ok, not stressing, not worring, just waiting..hopefully it lasts till the end. lol :)