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![]() | Age: 27 Country: CA Province/region: Alberta City: Red deer Partner: Shawn Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Please select Due date: 09 0 ,0000 Occupation: mommy / wife |
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| 20-4-2008 - Someone tell me this is normal | My mood while writing this blog:a bit b!tchy |
Alright, I'm not sure what my problem is... or I should say problems. This week I feel like I have more to complain about, than things to be happy about.
Sleep: Come 3pm I am so tired that I feel like I need a nap. I can't concentrate on anything and if I sit somewhere that is romotely comfortable my eyes start to droop. I (usually) don't allow myself to nap because then I'll never be able to get to sleep at night. What a concept huh? So by 10pm I'm definately ready... I crawl into bed and my eyes spring open and I'm wide awake. I've started reading in bed (anything that is not an anthropology text book!) to try to get tired. I'll read until almost midnight, finally my eyes get blurry and I pass out. But I spend most of the night tossing - sleeping on my right side is only comfy for so long, then I need to roll over and try out the left side, that doesn't work so I lay on my back, which sort of wakes me up more cause I know i'm not supposed to lay on my back... and on and on and on. And now that I'm not working (yet) or going to school (Thank goodness) I find that I'm sleeping until like 10 or 11am - which is super late for me. Then the whole cycle starts again. Should I just get used to not having sleep? Will it be like this pretty much until my kid is grown?
Motivation: I'm not sure if this is connected to my sleeping issues or not, but I don't want to do anything. I have a big final exam tomorrow (yikes!) and yet I have stopped caring. The spare room could use a dusting and tidy - but I don't care. I finally put away laundry yesterday that has been sitting in piles for a week!! This isn't like me - I'm usually a get up and go kind of person. All I want to do right now is stay in my jammies, curl up on the couch or in bed and read.
Good Stuff: Ok I need some balance here - I'll add some of the good things. I have been working for the Schizophrenia Society of Alberta for the last almost 2 years. I did my first year social work practicum with them, and then they hired me over the summer. I have been working realllllly part time for them to earn some extra cash while going to school this year. I will be starting back more full time in early May and it's very exciting. I was really worried that because of school I would not have enough hours to claim maternity EI, but now it looks like I will. Another good thing - Shawn and I are headed to Nova Scotia for a 9 day holiday. Most of his family are from out there so we're going to visit and what not - I have a feeling his mom is trying to plan a shower for me. I can't wait for a vacation. I can't wait to be done done done school for now.
Ok, I've b!tched enough - sorry if i'm so negative. maybe someone just needs to come and poke me in the eye!
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