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crystalmooon
	Age: 28 Country: CA Province/region: Alberta City: Red deer Partner: Shawn Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: No Due date: 09 0 ,0000 Occupation: professional worrier / mummy / wifey
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08-8-2008 - map of life

My mood while writing this blog:
contimplative

We, as a society, spend so much money, time and effort to try to look younger - to reduce the signs of aging. I have to ask myself - why? Ok, so I am a mere 28 years old - I have not yet find a grey hair or a line that was not there previously - but I am starting to understand this whole aging process. The 'me' of ten years ago is just a shadow, a memory, of who I am today - I couldn't be the 'me' of today without that silly, shy, awkward girl I was.

I heard someone say that they liked to think of their wrinkles as a map of the life that they've led. A crease for the times she had worried about the ones she loved. A line to mark all the momements that she laughed with great abandon. I think this is a beautiful way to view what happens to our bodies as we get older.

What about other processes our bodies go through? Gaining weight, growing, shrinking, losing hair, growing hair in weird places, stretch marks, needing glasses... this list can go on for some time. These are not all specific to aging in the sense of 'oh crap I'm getting old'. These things can happen when we're 12 or when we're 87.
We have a commonality on this site, so I'll focus in there for the moment; we're gaining weight, getting stretch marks, and generally losing the body we once had... because we are creating a beautiful new being. Each of those commonalities affect us all differently - I for one don't really care a whole lot about getting stretch marks, but it upsets me to no end that I am so big. Other women may see their body as big and beautiful with the life they've created, but cry at the sight of one itty bitty stretch mark.

Ok, so you may be wondering where all this is going... I want to be proud of my body. I want to look at my wrinkles as a map of the life that I've lives - I want to look at my stretch marks as the story of my child - I want to look at myself in the mirror, and although far from perfect, I want to be content with what I see. I want to stop comparing myself to the unrealistic women who are everywhere in the media - I WANT TO BE BEAUTIFUL ON MY TERMS. This is what I want. And by writing this, getting it out of my head, maybe I can start the process of loving myself more.... we all need to love ourselves more.

4 Comments on map of life

xxshellxx - Saturday, 9 Aug
That is beautiful!!!! As I lay here with my back aching so much I can't walk I actually feel lucky & blessed. Thank you

abrowneyedgurl - Friday, 8 Aug
Wow.. That is good.. I can say there are times that I look in the mirror and think I am not just prego I am fat and then get really upset.. There has been many situations were I wont let my hubby touch me cause I feel so fat. But then there are those days that I look in the mirror and smile and think I am the luckiest girl on earth.. We just need to think after the Baby is born we have all the time in the wrld chasing them and loosing the weight.. Remember weight gaining is something that can always be fixed :)

KellysBabyBelly - Friday, 8 Aug
These are not only words of wisdom, but a confidence booster as well.

JennRunyon524 - Friday, 8 Aug
I wanted to give you a standing ovation after reading this, but then I thought I'd probably look a little silly to my husband who's sitting right beside me! lol. You are right on girl! I don't understand why we complain about a process that is soo beautiful! Some women go their entire lives WISHING they could get pregnant and experience what we are so blessed with so who are we to complain about one little blemish or stretch mark! I am so thankful to be blessed with a beautiful baby girl on the way, we can't WAIT to meet her! I just think that we should all feel beautiful because in my opinion every pregnant woman is gorgeous and glowing. We come in all different shapes and sizes and yes we may gain a little more weight than we would have liked, but it's for a reason, so that we can have a healthy baby! I know I'm going on a rant here, but I believe that babies are the most perfect parts of you and your partner combined into one perfect little person, so how can we make something so beautiful and perfect seem ugly? :) I like your point of view doll! You are beautiful!!

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