03-8-2008 - Random blog

My mood while writing this blog: CONTENT

Hey Ladies!

Not wrote anything for quite some time on here so i thought i'd update you all in the world of Dawn and her unborn J.D!

I am now firmly in the 3rd trimester(81 days to go) and alongside of having to deal with the normal aches and pains and lack of sleep that comes with pregnancy, I have been diagnosed with the beautiful SPD to deal with.

I was at hospital having my gestational diabetes test - which gratefully came back fine - and i was speaking to another woman about aches in my pubic area and not being able to put on my undies and get in the bath on my own and walk up stairs, pretty much anything that involves leg elevation, she told me about SPD and said I should get checked out. I spoke to nurse, she agreed Gemma(preggers woman), so now on this coming Tuesday when I hve my normal 28wks check with midwife i have to ge support belt and physio too.Very happy that im open and spoke to Gemma about my aches i was gonna leave it and not bother telling anyone, as a first time mum i thought it was normal in that area and in the hips as im heavy, but apparently not!!

P.S Has anyone else realised that if your pregnant, you talk to anyone about medical issues concerning pregnancy and sometimes in graphic details - but i you're not pregnant, you dont really talk to anyone about medical probs. Its like its socially acceptable to talk about stuff if preggers, but no one wants to know if you're not as thats just weird! Lol. Just a thought i was having the other day!

The most humiliating thing about SPD for me so far is i couldnt stand to go to the loo whilst at work, so my manager had to wheel me to the disabled toilets on my chair, through the whole office, staring at me, humiliating,degrading and i wanted the ground to swallow me up! I can laugh about it now, but only just!

If you have read my other blog 'scared', you should be thinking is there anything else this girl can go through?! Lol. But although it hurts,and i cant do much, I had a reality check as a couple of colleagues at work are goin through IVF and failing miserably, so i guess all in all i should be grateful that i have a beautiful boy, growing and maturing as he should.

I did have a bit of a bitch fit the other day at my man Steve. I told him i was in pain and he rolled his eyes, as ot say ' oh god, not again,here she goes.' So i snapped and said ' WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?' (lol) He graciously told me that i complain about my pain every 5 mins or so and i was doing his head in. My response was - well in those 5 mins where im not complaining inm still in f***ing pain, so no matter how many times i tell you it still doesnt cover the amount of pain im in, does it?????!!!! Needless to say, silence wasnt golden at that point. Its the 1st time when ive really snapped at him and i hated it.

I realised later that this is his first child and he finds it hard to deal with everything too, and with regards to pain he has very little effect on it, and cant take it away,if he could he would. I just told him that i wanna share everything with him, and its depressing me being in pain all the time, but all i wanna hear from him is ' i love you, its all worth it, not long to go now etc etc.' Just some nice words of comfort really.

Anyways, we went out last night to a friends house for a get together and it was soooooo hard getting up this morning, i woke about 10am, and i ahte sleeping through the day, so i got up had breakfast and by 12pm i was falling asleep on the sofa!! I cant believe it, i have had serious hangovers, had massive benders,drank all day and night and NEVER EVER felt as tired in my life!!!!!I couldnt for love nor money keep my eyes open - anybody else going through this at the moment? The weather is slightly better as there is a breeze now and a couple of days ago it rained, which for the first time in my life i was SOOOO happy with! Im not a sun worshiper anyways but i have been praying for rain to cool i down. Poeple keep telling me i have the pregnancy glow, but i think they secretly mean im sweating like a pig on a honeymoon! Lol.

Well thats it for me, as my bloke has asked me to join him in the shower - so im off! X x x