21-8-2009 - Havein A Fuc@ed Up Week (FUC@ MY BABY DADDY)

My mood while writing this blog: Mad, Angry, All That Bad SH#@

Well I mad ass hell as you can see for one this is my 2nd time blog this the 1st time I hit go back and it took every thing off but any way. I have not seen shawndrea's daddy in 2 to 3 months and I have not talked to him in 4 days.He was there the 1st month than he said his daddy had to have so work done to his back and he had to be there, I said ok he was gone to NEW JERSEY for one month he came back may the 9th the day be4 mother's day .Ok so now he's back but he's unhappy he said (we) needed money he wants to do for me and his baby .I said do what you have to do to make your self happy im ok so he went back to new jersey he said he would be up there for a month then every thing would be ok.I told him to be back in time to see what the baby was and he said you know I will I would not miss it, that was june 5th. So now he is up there every thing is good and he is sending money for the bills and thing I want ok every thing is good but it's comein up time to see what the baby is and you know it he was not not here. He said his other baby mama fucked up is car ok that's ok im good . So I call him and tell him IT'S A GIRL I happy as hell a baby girl my 1st baby but was he was not happy he said he was I know he was not you could hear it in the way he say girl then he said I wanted a boy I have 2 girls, but any way back to what I was say.So time has went by and I miss him, and now it's time to come home every time it's time to come home some thing happens or some thing comes up every time.So the time be4 this one I told himif you are not back by 8-16 it's over he said he had to be up there for his lil girls b-day's on 8-15 I said ok cool. So now it 8-17 at 2:39am the last time I talked to him, he said Im on my way im getting the girls ready the he was on his way. It's now 8-21 no baby daddy so now im all up in my head I called every were his daddy, friends, jail every were and no one had him or know here he was so ok now im sad and scard I don't know were he is .So to day I called his friend B that lives down here and he said I just got off the phone with him 5 min a go WHAT THE FUCK .He said he told him to call me and that I was all upset cuz I didn't know if he was ok. He said he would call me he said he droped ih phone in h20 so now im waiting. NO CALL so I called that phone and left a message and boy was it fucked up.I will be ok shawndrea will be ok my mother and grandmother are helping with the bills so thats good. I mad how could you not love me and what you have made but that ok.God will see us there.